My beautiful amazing awesome son passed unexpectedly between 11:10 pm Sunday March 24 and 8:30 am Monday March 25, 2019 at the young age of 33. My son has had a lot of struggles in his life. He was fighting demons with drug addictions, psychological issues, manic depressive disorder, and severe anxiety.  He was not perfect, but none of us are. He started experimenting with drug usage in his teen years. As he grew older, his drug usage escalated. He was also battling severe depression and severe anxiety. Unfortunately this way of life took a tole on his body, inside and out. We do not know the exact cause of death yet and I will be notified in a couple weeks of the outcome of his autopsy. Although he chose to partake in this way of life for many years, he also was clean and sober for many years as well.  He had his good  and bad years. No one knows what struggles he was battling emotionally and mentally. No matter what battle he was trying to defeat and conquer, he never felt whole. He often told me that if he could not have a real job and a real home then he was not a real man because real men have jobs and homes.  My son was the center of so many people's lives.  He is the father of 3 children. He is the brother of one sister. He had a list of friends that would make Santa Claus's list of good boys and girls look tiny. He had an amazing relationship with his grandmother in particular.  They were tight. Their relationship can't be put into words to give it justice. They were closer than peanut butter and jelly. He was my protector. He would never, ever let anyone say anything bad or negative about me, his grandma, his sister, or his friends. He was not one to typically initiate a scuffle but if he had to defend his family members in any way, he would step up and do what he had to do, despite anything.  I currently have the mightiest, strongest, and most dedicated guardian angel a person could ever have.

If you were fortunate to be one of Brandon's friends, you were extremely blessed. His sense of humor, which I am confident he got from me, was insanely fun. He could turn a bad situation into a giggle session without effort. His smile was contagious. His eyes were the highway to his soul, both of which were addictive and sincere. If Brandon was your friend, you had a friend for life. He would, if he could, drop anything on a dime to help anyone out if he was capable of doing so.  I can't say enough about his generosity and compassion for his family and friends.  He was also a GREAT dad. Despite relationship issues with the children's mom's, that did not make him a bad dad. He absolutely loved each and every one of his 3 children. During the last few months he was able to really communicate with his now 2 1/2 year old baby Axl. Oh the joy that baby brought to my son.  Brandon could be having his WORST day ever, mentally and physically, but being able to video chat with that perfect baby boy made all his pains, inner and outer, disappear, even if only for a few minutes. Let it be known my son never said one negative thing about his children. He loved them more than anyone can and will ever imagine.  When my son was fortunate to be mentally and physically able to have a job, he could have easily been nominated 'worker of the year'.  He took great pride in is jobs, pride in the fact that he was a provider and when I say he was a great worker, he was an EXCELLENT worker, but unfortunately, there were too few times he was capable of holding a job down.  His dream career was to be a vet tech.  Perhaps he can achieve that dream in heaven. He will be up there taking care of everyone's pets with love and care...

I have chosen to have my amazing son cremated.  During the last part of his life, his skin was basically being eaten from the inside out. He developed massive sores on 75% of his body. We are not sure yet it this was due to his hep C and his liver enzymes being low or from a new medicine he was taking to help clear up these sores, but regardless, he would not want anyone to see him in a way that was anything less than perfect.  That boy (yes he's my boy), spent HOURS in front of the mirror. He had to be perfect, for the ladies of course. He was very vain with his looks. That was fine with me, cause as you can see, he is one handsome young man.  So to honor his wishes, I will not be having his final day on earth be one where he less than perfect.  He would not want anyone, friend or foe, to see him the way he looked when he left this earth. 

This memorial fund is being requested because, as his mom, I can't honestly afford the cost by myself. I work part time and right now I am not working at all for about a month. I am a complete wreck and am constantly in a state of shock, so my income has stopped, for awhile. I am also in college, at the age of 53. I thought about dropping out, because I don't know why honestly. But I can't and I won't. He would not want me to do that. He was so very proud of me for my decision to start higher education at the age of 52. He was also very proud to say his mom is maintaining a 4.0 GPA and my field of choice: Drug Counselor.  I could save my son's life, but in the future, I hope I can save someone else's.

All of his final expenses will be managed by me, his mommy.  Please help me if you can. I don't ask for much ever from anyone, but right now, I need some help.

One last note... my son ALWAYS said "I love ya lady" when we talked or texted. That phrase was ONLY said to me and it will never be forgotten.  I will be getting a memorial piece of ink work in memory of my son with that phrase incorporated into it.

Thank you for reading this and please pray for my family members to heal.  

My son is currently at the funeral home of my choice. I have until April 2, 2019 to raise these funds.  The funeral home must be paid in full by April 4th to perform his cremation.  Even if you are unable to help,I appreciate you reading about my son, my daughter's brother, my mom's grandson, my grandchildren's daddy and his 100's of friends. Brandon Robert Miller will NEVER, EVER, be forgotten.

Please share the heck out of this for me and his family and friends. 

Fly high Brandon, your mom is a train wreck right now without you and I need you so much and want you back so bad... I'll get better in time...Just never ever forget you were loved beyond any words I can ever say or write.