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- Just another menace contributing out here to society... nobody special. Trying to become the best version of me day by day, but ADHD pulls me down. I find myself in a constant sporadic loophole where it's hard to keep up with this crazy mind. Don't get me wrong, it's a blessing, mostly because it sets me apart from the rest, but I need a break from it. Meds are the only thing that do it for me. With such a shortage of the medication, it's hard to cope with the daily challenges of life that regular people who don't have ADHD effortlessly do. For us with ADHD, it sucks and it can be a drag. Simple tasks sometimes feel like the most drag to do. Paying attention and following simple instructions, articulating yourself, and expressing yourself without sidetracking from what you were saying and eventually forgetting what point you were making. Poor emotional regulation, loud obnoxious behavior. I wasn't so aware of how annoying I was until I realized how calm gets me. It allows the mind of a person who has ADHD to take the time to process things before taking action. Found out by myself at 24 that I had it. Went to a psychiatrist, and boom, they started me on Adderall. Life changed immediately. Never would I have known this is what helps me cope with ADHD symptoms. I'm able to start things and actually finish them. I'm able to execute tasks and follow through with them. The best thing I could've done is start these meds. I have had a history of being unstable in jobs except for the current one that I'm in. First job I kept for more than 9 months, which was the longest I've kept a job. First year on my job is when I started taking these meds. Now there has been a shortage of these meds and one day on Memorial Day weekend for the past 2 weeks or so, no pharmacy had any type of Adderall. Mind you, these are the only meds that alleviate my ADHD symptoms. So what did I do? I bought them illegally and got arrested the day after because I was in the wrong place at the wrong time. They took me to jail. Called my mom, told her to let my job know what happened so they know. Boom, investigation in this bitch. From one day to another in a sequence of events. Got out of jail. (Mom bonded me out, obviously.) Now I'm suspended from my job without pay until I get my court case settled. So in the meantime, I'm trying to make ends meet. Mind you, I'm trying to avoid going back to jail, so I avoid buying from what I had left to just lay low and off the radar. 2 months later, I'm still trying to make ends meet. Having ADHD and not being medicated and being suspended without pay has been a nightmare. As you guys do know, we get in over our heads on the deep end quite often, and more so with a felony court case and the amount of time being handed too just makes it a catastrophic self-destructive nightmare where you question life. I have been coping with meds here and there to help with the anxiety and overthinking, but you know I'm still in the same place as I was right after the day I got out of jail. Due to some heavy complications in communication with my mother and her paying the rent, food, ALL the bills, pretty much everything in the house, she has nothing she could give to me. Honestly, it's the second month and I really do and genuinely need some help so I can get by, haircut, clothes, be able to take a girl on a date and pay for at least my things, or even at least take myself on a date. It's been 2 months and don't get me wrong, I have been really trying to make ends meet, I really have, but my ADHD messes that up as I can't literally follow simple instructions in the most basic job or gig, reducing my chance of finding any type of income. But I have made a psychiatric appointment, so I have to wait about a week so I can possibly acquire some meds and that will make the difference. I just really, really from the heart, I beg y'all, please, whatever you can give. A brother going through a rough patch right now, and until my case isn't resolved, I can't go back to work. So I'm begging from the most sincere part of my soul, please help a brother out. Any amount is appreciated.