Music had gone from rock star fantasy to therapy for me... the piano was where I could try to make sense out of everything else in my life. Where I had previously dreamed of standing on a stage with everyone knowing who I was, I found myself instead seeing music as a way to communicate, to reach out to others. My new goal in terms of music was to create something that connected with someone, to in some small way help them make sense out of something going on in their life. A very different dream, but one that has never felt to me like I'd given up anything important.
In high school I believed there was someone out there somewhere waiting for me... we would meet, fall in love, and spend our lives together. I have repeatedly thought that it was happening, but I've ended up feeling like my relationship history is one long case of mistaken identity, some harder to let go of than others. Despite my very objective attitude toward the world, and scientific sensibility that demands evidence when deciding something is true... I've found myself believing more than ever that I have a "soul mate" out there, that she is just around the corner, and that I have even heard her say my name a couple of times when I know I was the only one in the room. No rational explanation, just a gut belief.
The project I want to make is all about that. It's about my brain and heart wrestling with the reality I find myself in, and music was the way it made sense to me to communicate it. I don't know if I will ever find my person - but however the story ends, having the chance to bring this project into reality is my way of making the last 30 years worth all the heartache and missteps.
I have ten songs that will make up the project... I've recorded one as a "proof of concept" sort of thing, the title track, and have included a video here. They range a little bit in style and some are more ambitious than this one. If you like the sound of it and want to hear more, or if you just want to support an aging Yooper in chasing one of his dreams, please consider chipping in. Literally any amount will help, and any contribution is appreciated more than I can possibly express.
I'm expecting it to cost roughly $10,000 to record, mix, and master the music in the studio, based on my experience working on the first one. I will make a digital copy of the album available to anyone who contributes, and anyone who drops in $50 or more will get a physical CD as well. For anyone with deep pockets and who contributes $100 or more, you'll get the digital copy, the CD, and a vinyl album. (I had only planned on making one old-school vinyl record for myself, but will include additional copies to try to help return some value for bigger donations.)
Any help is appreciated more than I can possibly convey!