Help Moze have a Trans-Affirming Life
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Hey I'm Moze!
I am 21 year old Black Trans person from NYC trying to break away and find a new environment to heal and grow in.
Anything you or a friend can contribute helps! Please donate and share far and wide <3
Also my birthday is in mid-July! <3
*GFM DOES TAKE A CHUNK OF THE DONATIONS FOR THEIR SELF SO IF YOU CAN CONTRIBUTE VIA CASHAPP: $Mozasia VENMO @MozKnowz or PayPal @LanasiaM PLEASE DO <3*
HERE IS MY DILEMMA:
Recently I was able to relocate to Chicago with my SW savings, looking to have a break from my parent's home in New York and I've discovered that it would be sooo much better for my health and development as a person to finally move out on my own. Back home I live with a parent who refuses to see me for who I am and constantly misgenders me, who has been abusive and neglectful towards me since childhood, and who is also chronically disabled. I mention this bit because, for a long time, many responsibilities around caregiving and housekeeping (my parent is also a hoarder) have fallen on me instead of others--and I'm recognizing more recently how much this is tied to the violence of transphobia and forced gendering. If I leave this home environment, my family's dynamics around care and responsibility for my parent will be forced to move in a better direction. I should also mention that I have to pay my parent every month for "household needs", and the longer I've stayed with them, the more my savings that could be put toward independence, are depleted...this is even more distressing as I watch my parent's hoarding and excessive shopping on a daily basis, but am denied the right to know what my money is needed for.......
I have no other family who can support me or house me. Even while living on my own I will still be paying for my parent and I's joint phone bill. I am also a college dropout with thousands of dollars of debt waiting on me...
TW for SA: I am a many-time survivor sexual assault and intimate abuse. I have a long-standing battle with social anxiety and social pushout for many different reasons. I am autistic and I live with ADD and OCD as well. This mental environment can be extremely overwhelming and disabling, especially when I am in my parent's home where I feel so stuck, depressed and isolated. I had to leave therapy recently as well as I came to terms with how ableist and transphobic my therapist was to me. Her perspectives on the abuses that I've experienced were especially harmful as she used "compassion" and lessons on neurology and my abusers' traumas to help me be more "understanding" of why people have abused me........This is in addition to her not listening to my beliefs about what disorders I am struggling with and making suggestions that were inconsiderate to my reality and unhelpful.....plus misgendering me.
Right now I am looking for minimum wage work and an affordable space to live on my own (the place I'm in right now is only a month long sublet). I am an artist invested in drawing, painting, music, fashion, and film-making, still trying to build capacity and resources to create more. I aspire to be a part of a true liberatory community of folks like me in the future.
I have always done a lot to care for and support other people around me, financially, emotionally, physically etc, but I feel so often that others are unable or unaware of how to pour back into me and see my pain. So for now, I just want atleast this level of independence to be able to pour back into myself and manifest a better future for me.....and inevitably those who I care for as well, because I'll always pour back into others.
Anything you or a friend can contribute helps! Please donate and share far and wide <3
Also my birthday is in mid-July! <3
*GFM DOES TAKE A CHUNK OF THE DONATIONS FOR THEIRSELF SO IF YOU CAN CONTRIBUTE VIA CASHAPP: $Mozasia VENMO @MozKnowz or PayPal @LanasiaM PLEASE DO <3*