Help me wake up from a nightmare

I want to wake up from a never ending nightmare, I've been living in the past year and half. The only way to do it is to divorce John Kennedy. It's not a nice divorce, it's an absolutely horrible one. I don't have a family here to support me unlike my husband, who turned my life and the life of my kids into something horrible beyond imagination. The cost of divorce is from $10,000(just a retainer fee) to $100 000 depending how my husband is going to play the game. So far he is not playing it nice. I want my kids to have a safe, calm environment and  smile again.
I'm very thankful for every dollar you can donate.