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EWWWWW........That’s my deflated hot air balloon of a body.
I have gained and lost and gained and lost and now I am stuck. i don't like leaving my house because i am constantly uncomfortable.
Everything is hard to do.
EVERYTHING. tying my shoes or going up a small flight of stairs is exhausting.
I know it’s not just my 20-25 lbs of skin and fat that hugs me like a human Fanny pack that keeps me unable to do a long list of normal everyday activities. It is also my Multiple Sclerosis that makes me walk like I’m drunk.
I bring a cane with me most places because my balance is horrible and i need to work on getting my muscles stronger so i don't end up in a jazzy scooter before i'm 45.
I need to be able to be active with my 6 and 8 year old sons. They deserve a mommy who is able to take them for hikes, go on amusement rides, walk along the water at the beach, leave the damn house.
Anyway, 3/21/22-corset body lift….it’s happening!!!! I just need to pay out of pocket since my surgeon, Dr. Moya in Lewisburg pa, is not in my network so insurance is out.
We met for the first consultation and I was in tears when he told me i was a great candidate for the CBL. My most recent surgery (there have been many) I woke up without the gastric sleeve due to the amount of scar tissue I have. Scar tissue from my severe pancreatitis that put me in the hospital for two months. 3 months after I had my first son (Emergency C-section) a gallstone was lodged into my pancreatic duct. I was put into a drug-induced coma as they filled me with 65 lbs of fluid to "bathe my pancreas". I had three pseudo cyst's, the Dr told my parents one was the size of a volleyball and i had a 50% chance of "making it". Most of my organs were not doing ok and I was in the ICU asleep, having CRAZY dreams for a few weeks. (This is all with a 3 month old newborn at home)
here is a link to the most depressing christmas video.
I am asking for help. Help paying for this life changing surgery. Life changing not only for myself but for my two incredible boys and husband who love me the way I am. The problem is I don't. I despise myself for letting it get this out of hand. You would think someone who lost over 150 lbs naturally wouldn't cry as they look in the mirror.
MY PLANS for after surgery is to become a paraprofessional at my sons school. I have been a hairstylist since 2004 but my hands don't work as well as they used to and i have had to cut back doing hair to only once or twice a week. not to mention, standing for over an hour isn't something i am able to do anymore without becoming exhausted.
I realize this is the MS working its wonders but the large amount of weight that can be removed will help unimaginably. The fact that I will be able to stand up straight and not feel a constant pull forward and down.
If you can contribute ANYTHING to my surgery I would be incredibly grateful.If you are not able to donate anything can you share my story. THANK YOU for taking the time to read this.
