After about a year of dealing with severe anxiety and depression, I hit my limit. My manager talked to me and said that my work has been so up and down that I'm not consistent. After talking with HR and sharing everything that's been going, HR suggested that I take a leave of absence and work on my mental health. The same day, I contacted my doctor and shared everything. It apparently was enough for a recommendation to go through triage. I told triage that I won't make it through the next 2 months without major help. Triage said I needed to get immediate help as my capacity to deal with stress, anxiety, and depression is basically at zero. I've been approved for 2 weeks of leave from work to go through a mental health program, and will hopefully come out with a long-term arrangement that will help me cope with life.

You see, I haven't been living for a long time. I've been surviving. My mind and body have been in a constant state of "fight or flight" and it's finally broken me. I have to do what I need to do to rebuild who I was as a person. I've been a shell for... well, since covid.

The only way I can get through the next month is by asking for help. I can't afford our basic living expenses without that anxiety creeping into dangerous levels. I just completed day one of the Intensive Outpatient Program. I need this. It's potentially life saving. My pets and my family need this.

I know no one really has any money anymore, so please share if you are unable to donate. Please also send me your thoughts & prayers. I'm asking for space while I do what I have to do to regain my spark. I love you, but I'm emotionally exhausted. TYIA for anything and everything.