Help me rebuild financially!

Hi, for those of you who don't know me, I'm Holly! I was engaged to Ollen to be married October 5th of this year. Unfortunately he tested positive for covid on September 1st and ended up passing away the 15th of September. We've been living together in a house we chose for over 3 years. He paid for our house and I paid for the other bills. In my current state, I'm unable to pay for housing out of my savings due to a medically disastrous year. I've had 3 surgeries, and have missed more work than I ever have. The medical bills demolished my savings and based on my income alone, my rent is too high for me to afford. I plan to buy our home, as that will lower the monthly payments to a point I can manage. Until then, I'm skating by now that I no longer have Ollen's income to help.

I'm needing help to acquire enough for a down payment, and a cushion specifically for affording housing while I build my savings back up and am no longer in a bind.

Losing Ollen has absolutely destroyed me, and now that some time has passed, reality is setting in that the life we built together is at risk. He was my entire heart and soul, and life will never be the same without him. I'm doing the best I can with what I have, this is just the next step to ensure I still have our home.

Any amount helps, and thank you so much for reading to this point. This year has been incredibly burdensome and it has finally reached a point I cannot tackle on my own.

Thanks to everyone!