Hello everyone,

There is a huge part of me that is so embarrassed to do this. I’m so humiliated about the turns my life has taken. But I’m putting my pride to the side to write this. 

I tried to kill myself. It didn’t work as you’ve probably guessed because I’m writing this. 

I was suffocating from my mom getting sick and me not being anywhere nearby to support her. I was suffocating from getting laid off from a job that kept telling me I was doing great at work and it was stable employment and that at Ascension we were all one big family. 

I looked and am looking for work. I wasn’t even able to get a single interview from companies that are saying they need people desperately. 

It all got to me. I felt I was letting my family and especially my fiancée at the time, down. I hate the idea that I couldn’t provide and that I couldn’t correct this situation I found myself in. 

So i just didn’t want to do it anymore. But the attempt didn’t work. 

My fiancée left me and moved out shortly after my attempt to take my own life. I lost the love of my life in the same week I needed her support more than ever. On top of that, I now live in an apartment I can’t afford because I’m unemployed and I’m scared every day that I’ll lose the roof over my head. I’m scared I’ll miss a car payment and loose my means of transportation and means to get to and from the doctors that I NEED. 

I need financial help with my medical bills. I do not have health insurance and I’m in therapy three times a week plus meeting with my psychiatrist. This is all out of pocket. 

I’m asking for donations to help me pay for my medical bills and not land myself in any more debt than I’m already in. 

I also do not want to live in Texas anymore. Given my mental health state, my fiancée moving out and telling me she doesn’t want to get back together, AND my mom being sick. I want to go back home to the North East. So does my little sister. Please please help us do this. 

Help me get better without ruining my financials any more than they already are. And please please please help us leave Texas. 

The goal is big but I’m begging you all. I’m setting my pride aside and begging. Please help me get through my treatment and then get home to New Jersey. 

Every little bit helps. 

I can’t thank you enough for reading this. 

Love, Kaitlyn