Help Me Out Of A Mentally Abusive Home

I've been in a emotionally and mentally abusive home for longer than I'd like to admit. It's gotten to the point where I've thought of ending my life several times the past few months, and it's only getting worse. My only form of escaping this is moving in with my girlfriend in New York. I'd like to get the money on my own for that, but without my birth certificate or an ID, I can't get my own job at all. I've attempted to do a gofundme before, but due to my parents (mostly my mother) being "emotionally devastated" by the things said in the previous fundraiser, they demanded over half of the funds I collected, leaving me basically at square one again, almost holding me for ransom.

I would attempt to go to small claims court, but honestly I feel that would just be worse for me. Considering that my mother would say all of the previous post was lies, they'd most likely rule in favor of her, and I'd get the worse end of that situation no doubt.

I've also put this under my alias and kept the fundraiser hidden from searches, so there's a less likely chance of this one being found by my family.

Please, I desperately need this help. For my own mental health, and the peace of mind to my friends around me. There's not much I can say other than please help...