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大家好，我叫Mindy（因政治敏感问题使用化名）。我是一名有八年经验的人权活动家，专注于亚洲人权、教育和女性权益。2022年年末，我的中国护照在旧金山驻华大使馆遇到更新障碍。在手续齐全、一切顺利的情况下，我被通知大使馆的旧护照被美国邮局寄丢，近期可能会被原信封退回。实际上，旧护照在没有任何更新的情况下被大使馆用信封内的第二个备用回寄信封莫名寄回到我的住址，导致我差一点因护照过期离境美国，被迫返回中国。
幸好我有日本的配偶在留卡，因此我改道去了日本，在那里待了一个多月。在推特上宣布退出后，我在日本驻华大使馆成功更新了中国护照，才得以返回美国加州。虽然没有直接证据表明这是因为我的政治言论导致的，但我感受到了深深的恐惧。在推特上，我安静了接近半年才敢重新发言，并因恐惧，在那之后，发布的推文尽力回避政治话题和政治观点。
2023年11月感恩节期间，我向神祷告希望得到更多真相和智慧，做一个清醒的人。结果不到七天就在一个声音的指引下，发现我丈夫背着我出轨嫖娼至少五年的残酷现实。自那时起，我的生活开始陷入动荡和混乱。
我曾以为自己身处贫困但幸福的几乎无性的婚姻中，一直期待有一天能一起凑够钱，与前夫补拍婚纱照，购买一对新婚戒指。然而，去年感恩节，我发现他竟然至少背叛了我五年。我们尝试过婚姻治疗，但由于他的消极与不配合，最终以失败告终。
在7月4日美国独立日那天，我们在旧金山签署了一份99%的离婚协议。同时，我正在寻求在日本的律师和公证人来帮助制作同样的法律文件。我也在申请政治庇护签证。目前，我的前夫对我寻求独立暂时表示支持，但他的态度不太稳定。最近，他在一次肢体冲突中，威胁说，如果我将他的行为告诉他的父母或朋友，就要把我“送回中国”。
我与前夫多次发生激烈争执，期间我的脸上和身上都被打出淤青，他事后都跟我道歉。我也担忧如果报警，孩子会受到严重精神创伤，他会失去工作，全家都会陷入困顿。于是我拼命寻找工作，想要独立和自由。但我发现无论赚多少钱，家里的支出就像黑洞永远不够，他逐渐失去沟通的耐心，并表示如果我向他家人或朋友透露他出轨嫖娼的事情，就把我“送回中国”。他利用我对失去自由的恐惧恐吓我，这让我深感不安。
我的前夫是日本人，如果我们离婚，我在日本的签证也将失效。持有中国护照让我无论是访问日本还是美国都非常困难。现在，我想搬出去，但高昂的房租让我望而却步。在精神崩溃的边缘，我拼命四处求职。然而，由于我的签证（E2签证）与他的签证挂钩，并且没有绿卡，找到稳定的高收入工作非常困难。这种情况让我感到心碎，因为如果我们正式离婚，我的签证将失效，我可能不得不回到中国，无法再见到孩子。作为一个长期批评中国政府的人，我不想冒险回国。
目前我在做兼职工作，并积极寻找更稳定的收入来源。我希望筹集五万美元，作为搬出去的启动资金，追求属于我的自由和幸福。
Hello everyone, my name is Mindy (a pseudonym for privacy due to political sensitivity). I have been a human rights activist for eight years, focusing on Asian human rights, education, and women’s rights. At the end of 2022, I encountered issues while renewing my Chinese passport at the Chinese Consulate in San Francisco. Although all procedures were complete and everything seemed to be going smoothly, I was notified that my old passport had been lost by the U.S. Postal Service, with a possibility of being returned in its original envelope. In reality, the old passport, without any updates, was inexplicably returned to my address by the consulate using a second, spare return envelope inside the original one. This nearly caused me to overstay my visa in the United States, forcing me to return to China. Fortunately, I had a Japanese spouse visa, so I diverted to Japan, where I stayed for over a month. After announcing my exit from Twitter, I successfully renewed my Chinese passport at the Chinese Consulate in Japan, allowing me to return to California, USA. Although there was no direct evidence linking this to my political statements, I felt a deep sense of fear. I remained silent on Twitter for almost six months, avoiding political topics and views in my subsequent posts. During Thanksgiving in November 2023, I prayed for more truth and wisdom, hoping to be a clear-minded person. Within a week, guided by a voice, I discovered the harsh reality that my husband had been cheating on me and soliciting prostitutes for at least five years. From that moment, my life began to spiral into turmoil and chaos. I once believed that I was in a poor but happy, almost sexless marriage, always hoping to save enough money to retake wedding photos and buy new wedding rings with my husband. However, during last Thanksgiving, I found out that he had been unfaithful for at least five years. We tried marriage counseling, but due to his indifference and lack of cooperation, it ultimately failed. On July 4th, American Independence Day, we signed a 99% divorce agreement in San Francisco. Meanwhile, I am seeking lawyers and notaries in Japan to help prepare similar legal documents. I am also applying for a political asylum visa. Currently, my ex-husband temporarily supports my quest for independence, but his attitude is unstable. Recently, during a physical confrontation, he threatened that if I disclosed his actions to his family or friends, he would “send me back to China.” My ex-husband and I have had numerous intense arguments, during which I suffered bruises on my face and body. He would apologize afterward, but I worried that reporting it would cause severe emotional trauma to our child, lead to his job loss, and throw our family into hardship. So, I have been desperately looking for a job, seeking independence and freedom. But I found that no matter how much I earned, household expenses seemed like a black hole, always insufficient. He gradually lost patience in communication, stating that if I revealed his infidelity and solicitation of prostitutes to his family or friends, he would “send me back to China.” He uses my fear of losing freedom to intimidate me, which leaves me deeply unsettled. My ex-husband is Japanese, and if we divorce, my visa in Japan will also become invalid. Holding a Chinese passport makes it very difficult for me to visit both Japan and the United States. Now, I want to move out, but the high rent costs are prohibitive. On the verge of a mental breakdown, I have been desperately seeking employment. However, due to my visa (E2 visa) being tied to his and my lack of a green card, finding a stable, high-paying job is very difficult. This situation breaks my heart because if we officially divorce, my visa will expire, and I may have to return to China, unable to see my child again. As someone who has long criticized the Chinese government, I do not want to risk returning there. Currently, I am working part-time and actively seeking more stable income sources. I hope to raise $50,000 as a starting fund to move out and pursue the freedom and happiness I deserve.
Hello everyone, my name is Mindy (a pseudonym for privacy due to political sensitivity). I have been a human rights activist for eight years, focusing on Asian human rights, education, and women’s rights. At the end of 2022, I encountered issues while renewing my Chinese passport at the Chinese Consulate in San Francisco. Although all procedures were complete and everything seemed to be going smoothly, I was notified that my old passport had been lost by the U.S. Postal Service, with a possibility of being returned in its original envelope. In reality, the old passport, without any updates, was inexplicably returned to my address by the consulate using a second, spare return envelope inside the original one. This nearly caused me to overstay my visa in the United States, forcing me to return to China. Fortunately, I had a Japanese spouse visa, so I diverted to Japan, where I stayed for over a month. After announcing my exit from Twitter, I successfully renewed my Chinese passport at the Chinese Consulate in Japan, allowing me to return to California, USA. Although there was no direct evidence linking this to my political statements, I felt a deep sense of fear. I remained silent on Twitter for almost six months, avoiding political topics and views in my subsequent posts. During Thanksgiving in November 2023, I prayed for more truth and wisdom, hoping to be a clear-minded person. Within a week, guided by a voice, I discovered the harsh reality that my husband had been cheating on me and soliciting prostitutes for at least five years. From that moment, my life began to spiral into turmoil and chaos. I once believed that I was in a poor but happy, almost sexless marriage, always hoping to save enough money to retake wedding photos and buy new wedding rings with my husband. However, during last Thanksgiving, I found out that he had been unfaithful for at least five years. We tried marriage counseling, but due to his indifference and lack of cooperation, it ultimately failed. On July 4th, American Independence Day, we signed a 99% divorce agreement in San Francisco. Meanwhile, I am seeking lawyers and notaries in Japan to help prepare similar legal documents. I am also applying for a political asylum visa. Currently, my ex-husband temporarily supports my quest for independence, but his attitude is unstable. Recently, during a physical confrontation, he threatened that if I disclosed his actions to his family or friends, he would “send me back to China.” My ex-husband and I have had numerous intense arguments, during which I suffered bruises on my face and body. He would apologize afterward, but I worried that reporting it would cause severe emotional trauma to our child, lead to his job loss, and throw our family into hardship. So, I have been desperately looking for a job, seeking independence and freedom. But I found that no matter how much I earned, household expenses seemed like a black hole, always insufficient. He gradually lost patience in communication, stating that if I revealed his infidelity and solicitation of prostitutes to his family or friends, he would “send me back to China.” He uses my fear of losing freedom to intimidate me, which leaves me deeply unsettled. My ex-husband is Japanese, and if we divorce, my visa in Japan will also become invalid. Holding a Chinese passport makes it very difficult for me to visit both Japan and the United States. Now, I want to move out, but the high rent costs are prohibitive. On the verge of a mental breakdown, I have been desperately seeking employment. However, due to my visa (E2 visa) being tied to his and my lack of a green card, finding a stable, high-paying job is very difficult. This situation breaks my heart because if we officially divorce, my visa will expire, and I may have to return to China, unable to see my child again. As someone who has long criticized the Chinese government, I do not want to risk returning there. Currently, I am working part-time and actively seeking more stable income sources. I hope to raise $50,000 as a starting fund to move out and pursue the freedom and happiness I deserve.
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Mindy Miao
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Cupertino, CA