Help me get into a position to Work and own a Home

Hello to anyone who may find this, or those who know me. I struggled to feel safe during my childhood up until I was 18, I had the chance to move out. Being away from my parents has been my best years, no question. I tried to do college and I went into a dorm since apartments weren't available for good prices or agreements (scummy). Wasted a year of my life, because stress and anxiety fully shuts me down for months. If no one reached out, I would just sit there not knowing what to do. I've been working to fixing these issues bit by bit, eventually I found a good solution but it's far too late for the current situation I'm in. I'm living in a small bachelors apartment with good AC, nice neighborhood, and a lot of personal freedom. It hurts I have to leave. I tried everything in my power on my own to try to work towards getting enough money, but I snapped out of my anxious state too late and my debt has been sitting at $3000 for over 2 months. So eventually they of course made the move to take legal action and evict me.

What I've learned now is I need to stop pretending I can do it all on my own. Unfortunately this is a lesson that took a while to learn and the people around me have not been very helpful until this year. If I'm honest about my feelings, I would get told it's my responsibility, and for the average 21 year old it is yeah. But I've never learned to manage them, my family would be too busy trying to hide me away when I was feeling upset or having more kids instead of focusing on the ones who were already in need of help, or one of my step parents who blatantly never wanted me in my home to begin with since I was around 11, and starved me for minor incidents, insulted and mocked me for things like my biological mother being an alcoholic, and a lot more that's more private. It's hard to work through this and the process is slow, but I do NOT want to be stuck under their roof. I want to draw, and I don't mind having to work harder for it as long as I don't suffer psychological abuse. It is my responsibility, but I need help as well.

So I ask for your help if you can spare any. It would help me make a down payment, be secure for a few months to find a full time job and get back on my feet. There's so many commitments I owe people and I just want to have the chance to work towards them instead of constantly playing catch up and falling behind more and more.