I am fundraising for myself so that I can take the time to heal and find my way back to be a force of positivity. I have been battling depression for over a year during which time period I made few attempts to leave my loved ones behind. I am the primary earner of my home of 4 with two children. My life has not been easy but I have always pushed forward with determination earning 3 degrees and purchased a home when I was in my early 30s. I have been living a positive and enriching life and was often seen as a lighthouse of love and hope by my friends. Last 2 years though have been extremely tough as I took on non profit work in the family justice world and I found myself battling my past trauma and demons in my heart. I was abandoned by my father when I was 4 mos old and raised by an abusive mother who "loved" me to her best ability but belittled me at the same time. Later on, I clinched onto a very abusive relationship to the point I was beaten so bad that I no longer even know pain. I have boxed all those negative things of my past in my 20s and 30s but as I turned 40, they are coming back at me with full force. I am at a point that I think I will need to take a long time off from work so I can get my mental health realigned and find a positive path forward. I am asking for financial help here because it will give me the peace of mind to seek full medical attention. I promise I will repay all donors once I am back on my feet and I will use the funds to create a suicide help tool especially focusing on working moms and single moms, 2 roles that have defined me as I hope to transform my sufferings into healing for myself and others in similar situations. The picture you see is a burned down house but on this wall remains the words of encouragement to dance in the rain. As I go through this internal storm of existential crisis, I am grateful that I still have the opportunity to engage with all of you here and sharing my dance of life. I hope to dance a victory dance with all of you someday. I want to share a song that is helping me at the moment as it so beautifully describes the power of those who sees the challenges of mental illness. https://youtu.be/ZnOBXELIY10

Thank you.