Please Help Me Recover Financially and find some safety and stability in life again.

I live a disabled life full of debt and regret, one of my most regretful choices in life was following the advice of my parents and going to college. I am a late diagnosed autistic with the chronic pain and the physical health conditions of Fibromyalgia and POTS, and many mental health conditions as well, such as DID and PTSD.

I am unable to hold a job due to these conditions, but since I managed to make it through college (all be it in a constant suicidal dissociative state the entire time) the government won’t give me assistance. I have been trying to get assistance for years now appealing over and over but there court uses the fact that I went to college against me, claiming Im not disabled since I went to school.

My conditions have worsted and continue to worsen as my life just gets harder and harder with every passing year. The last job I held was in 2020-2021 where I ultimately was fired due to my deteriorating mental health. I have never been able to hold any meaningful long term or full time employment due to my conditions, and could only hold a job for a few months part time at which point my physical health and or my mental health would cause me to need to stop working.

Medication and Therapy can only get me to a point of not being suicidal but does not get me to a point where I can function in a work place. I have tried using the skills I have and energy I have available to try and make a living off my art but have failed due to the same factors effecting me in traditional work spaces, I end up in braces and bedridden and my mental health becomes unable to manage.

I have many debts due to this, firstly being my student loan debt and other general life / medical debts. Right now I am living on in kind support of my parents, but my conditions are taking a toll on there financials as well and I blame myself every day for being nothing but a burden who is bleeding the, dry. We don’t have a reliable car to take me to my out of town doctors appointment and I can’t get the help I need since doctors in my general area are often dismissive and do not help me or my conditions.

I don’t want to live like this anymore, as the stress of having my life and living conditions deteriorate around me. But I am stuck and there is nothing I can do to get myself out of this. So I have to hope strangers will be willing to help out. The debt is killing us, and I just want to feel safe again and not live life like I am going to loose everything at any moment.