Help Matt raise money for HRT

Hi, I'm Matthew. I'm a boy, if you can believe, but I don't look like it, because the waiting lists for NHS cross-sex hormone treatment is suicide-inducing. I've shown signs of being transgender since my mother was convinced she was pregnant with a baby boy. Since I was 3 and refusing to play in a traditionally feminine way. Since I was 8 when I demanded a masculine or gender-neutral name and was devastated that I couldn't have one. Since I was 13, becoming so insecure about my changing body that I looked for older strangers' approval. And I've identified with the word "transgender" since I was 14, in severe mental distress and admitted to a mental facility for my safety. I was depressed, I felt alone, I was suicidal and I was harming my body.

Eventually, I came to terms with myself. I began using a new name and pronouns socially, I cut my hair, I stopped wearing anything feminine.

Even more eventually, my parents came round to the fact that their "daughter" was their son, and I had access to real binders, that didn't cause any more damage to my ribcage, I could change my name in school, I was referred to a gender clinic (3 years ago). I could start to live as myself.

As of recently, I've moved to a new school. Previously, I lived in a bubble of acceptance in my old school, and could cope with how I looked through the respect for my identity I had from fellow students. This is far from the case at my new school. I've barely been there two months, and I don't have enough fingers to count the amount of times I've been shouted at in corridors by complete strangers. I'm so, so close to passing, but the accumulation of my lack of facial hair, high voice and feminine figure is starting to put me in danger, not only with my mental health but physically and socially.

In order to be safe and alive, I need vital medical treatment. The end of the NHS waiting list is not in sight, several years away, but I can't wait that long; I don't know if I can survive that long. The cheapest way for me to access the necessary hormone treatment is through the London Transgender Clinic, starting the day I turn 18, at £1060 for the first year of treatment, which is something completely unachievable for me alone, as I only have 8 months to come up with this money.

Please, please consider helping me. I'm getting desperate, and I hope I can find some empathy from some people across the internet.