Hi, I’m Maddie and my life is really hard and complicated. At a young age, my daughter was cheated on by my mom. It affected me, and he was blaming me in a really mean way. It really affected me. Then they split ways, got divorced, and a couple of years later, my dad passed away from a heart attack. That always scares me as well for my health. They both were grown-up alcoholics ever since I was little, so it’s been very hard. My mom became more of an alcoholic and bipolar. The cops were coming to my house all the time during my eighth-grade year in middle school through the whole high school year. It really affected my mental health and my physical body. I’m now getting rashes on my body. My acne is really bad. I’m having really bad thoughts in my head. I’m struggling financially. I live now in an apartment with my best friend. We both pay rent, and it’s really hard and damaging me. I literally lost one of my friends. We’re not friends anymore because of how my life is right now. I can’t even eat well. I have to eat processed foods all the time because money is just really hard on me right now. I’m even struggling to pay my rent. I have to use my credit card and pay back when I have the money on time. I lost one of my jobs that was my life, the gym. I was just the front receptionist. They wanted me to become a personal trainer at another location, which is really far for me, and I’m already struggling with getting gas. One of the managers is very jealous of me, and I can tell by her actions and her body language that she’s always had something against me. She was working at the kids' club, and then she just became an operations manager because she put reviews of herself online. She just really downed me and banned me from my gym that is right next to my house. Literally, the cops had to escort me out for no reason. The managers suck at communicating. I told them I cannot do 9 AM every day. I have another job as well at night, and the manager from that place was not understanding anything because all they care about is the sales. They don’t care about your schedule. This was at Amped Fitness, so I don’t recommend them because they’re just fake. They don’t care about you. They just want the money; that’s all they care about. They really do not care about how to be flexible with your schedule. Just to remind you, I’m 19 years old living by myself. I don’t have any parents. The only parent close to me is my grandma, and she is considered my mom to me. She really helps me physically and mentally to keep going. She helps me take care of my cat, getting him cat food and litter because I can’t provide that right now. I don’t have enough money. I’ve been applying to multiple jobs, trying to go inside, but no one is hiring. I do not understand. I’m still gonna keep going and trying. I really wanna do my online coaching fitness because fitness is my passion. I really see myself out there. I work so hard, very hard. I start crying because I’m in so much pain in my mind, and I work out for hours when I have time. That’s the only thing that really helps me, seeing I have a purpose! A lot has changed. I’m not close with my family because they’re really into drinking and partying all the time. When I was living with my mom, it was hell. I got no sleep. She would always be screaming, banging on the door, telling me I’m a mistake and I should kill myself. It was horrible. It really ruined me, so that’s why I moved out. But moving out, it’s quieter. Of course, I can sleep now, but the downside is the money part. It’s very hard on me, and I can’t provide anything for myself but just work as a hostess right now and make my rent money. I also considered doing OnlyFans. I’m just at rock bottom, but I’ve gotten multiple agencies contacting me, but then it never really works out because that’s not what I wanna do. I really see myself in the fitness industry achieving that, so I really would appreciate if anyone could help. Donate to me to help with my groceries, my gas, taking care of my cat, getting self-care stuff for myself so I don’t get any bad infections, and maybe even help me a little with rent too or to even start my business. I really wanna start my business in fitness. I wanna make a supplement after I accomplish more followers and likes on my posts, and then later on, make a gym. So I really just have a lot going on in my mind. I wanna go to the doctor’s appointment as well to make sure everything is OK because I know that I’m not OK right now. Never mind, so anything really helps. I’m grateful for anything. It makes me sad because at this age, I really shouldn’t be stressing about this. I should be enjoying life, multitasking on other things like going to college and being in the dorm. That’s my dream right now. I wanna study either physical therapy, medicine, or entrepreneurship. I’m just really sad that I have to feel like this right now because of my rent. I have to be paying, and I’m trying to find other jobs, and right now, it’s really hard trying to find a job. I’m really just heartbroken and depressed. I wanna become happy and find a way to make money so this horrific feeling can go away. I haven’t even hung out with my friends in months. It’s crazy. I’m losing a bunch of bones because of how I’m feeling. I’m not close to my family at all as well because a lot has happened, and I told them my stories of what’s going on, and they just really aren’t understanding. So I pray everything out and pray that things will come my way again. Thank you to anyone that will help and donate to me through this journey of mine. Please pray for me that everything goes well. Please text me or message me through my social media if you need to ask me any questions because right now, I just really need help seriously. ❤️✝️