Hi y’all.

I’m pretty transparent most of the time about the things going on in my life. I’ve been trying to be a little quieter lately as to not be too vulnerable. Over the past year, my life has drastically changed for the best though I am struggling so simply keep afloat.

From my car getting crashed by another human, not having help from insurance due to my own failure of being able to keep up on payments before the accident, not being paid back by the human who promised not to leave me hanging, to losing my ID and having to go through MONTHS of back and forth with the DMV, having car troubles (multiple wiring issues, flat tire, key fob doesn’t work nor does button so I can’t lock my car and a ton of shit got stolen), rent troubles, and hardly enough to keep my phone on or put food on my table, I am really having a hard time keeping up.

Without an ID, my options for work are very limited right now. I’m going to Iowa on the 17th so that I may reinstate my DL & get a new physical copy so that I can transfer everything and become a CO resident. I have wanted to sign up for insurance (my mental health is rapidly deteriorating as much as I try to smile through it) food stamps etc but keep hitting walls without having an ID/Residency. Without having reliable and working transportation right now, I’m unable to volunteer at the food rescue which is 90% of where my food comes from.

On top of a hundred things I could shoot off that are going wrong, the one thing going right is that I am committed to my sobriety. That is hard enough to go through, especially when I’m trying to do this as independent as I can.

On top of ALL OF THIS, I went to open my laptop this afternoon and my screen went haywire. My mom purchased me this laptop for Christmas, it’s a 2020 MacBook Air. I just spend the last 100$ to my name on a deposit to get the screen fixed by a friend who is going to cover the cost for now/repair it for me.

I have three contracted gigs coming up that my laptop is my main source of income right now. I work on my laptop 10 hours a day every day, it is integral to me existing. I have a few jobs I can take once I have my ID again, still a few weeks out until I will have a physical copy. I don’t and never have had a credit card, so it’s not something I can fall back on. So, the future is bright, in the end. I really need some help truly getting on my feet.

All funds will be used to pay rent for September, fix the car troubles, put food on my table, pay my phone bill and car insurance. I am more than happy to provide proof of purchases to donors so they are reassured that I will utilizing proper money management. 

This is extremely hard for me to create and to circulate. Though, I refuse to let shame bully me into not having the courage to ask for help. I am in survival mode and I’m not giving up.

I know so many of us are having such a hard time right now. I truly would be so grateful if you could even spare a dollar towards helping.

thank you for even reading this, thanks for hearing me where I’m at and meeting me there. thanks for your support, even if you can’t spare a few bucks. I love you.