Help Leo with deposit and 1st month for July

Hai everyone my name is Leo , I’m 22 years old and my pronouns are they/them

This fundraiser is for myself so I don’t become homeless again

I’m raising money so I can finally have a stable living situation , my only form of identification which was my passport has been stolen so I can’t get a job currently and replacing it cost money ,

the money in this fundraiser will go towards getting back on my feet

if you want to know more about why I’m in this situation here is a journal entry from 10/31/2023 that explains where I am in life 

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Hello my name is Reynaldo White aka Leo and im a cult product. i was raised as a jehovahs witness, i attended 3 weekly meetings which later on had changed to 2 , i preached as often as possible up to 70 hours a week for a good while (sorry if i kncked on ur door lol) devoted all my time, energy, life and love to the church, i was taught that nothing in this world will serve me well and tht everything and everyone except god and the church was evil/poisonous. they managed to demonize everything from holidays to clothes from music to sports ,people, arts... any and every single thing that wasnt about their god jehovah was deemed as the devils work , everything was fine until i hit the "what the fuck am i doing with my life wall" at the age of 16 , i realized nothing ive ever thought, wanted or did was for myself but instead for jehovah and my parents, i tried asking questions but was alwyas met with the answer "stop reasoning just listen". i tried to free my mind of these restrictions and shackles but at that age it was really hard to reclaim my mental and physical freedom because i was underage so i had no choice but to ignore my own call for help and keep moving on until i can do something about it. As the years went on i finally hit 20, i had been working since i was 16 but none of the money was ever saved towards my future , it was spent living life and helping others. during this year my parents found me smoking and reported it to the church who then removed me from the community. as a result i couldnt stay with my family because this made them look bad , to have an ex jehvah witness in the house meant that my father who was an appointed elder in the church could no longer have any privilges. his priority has always been jehovah. so i had to move out it was very confusing being on my own, not knowing how to manage my money , do taxes, cook or take care of my own mental health it didnt make surviving any easier, i was stuck trying to figure these things out all while working a fulltime job at amazon, eventually it all caught up to me and i couldnt do it anymore, reaching homelessness and hunger i had no choice but to beg for help from my family, i received the help but not what i expected , upon arrival at my old home i was met with a contract. i can stay in the house as logn as i . shave my hair and worship jehovah once again and so i signed the contract. this time around things were different , i understood that i had no sense of self so i devoted my time to faking a smile and locking my door to be able to find out who i was after many years i did come to a conclusion so heres an entry from my journal " I used to seek a sense of security in wealth because i was a product of this material based world i soon came to find out that having wealth in the materialistic things caused many issues in the relationships i was holding and caused further more issues in my family and specially in the self, i learned as long as there are many levels of wealth conflict will exist in this world. I then started seeking for a sense of security in the intelect and knowledge, because well you are what you know right? lol not really i soon came to understand that there is really no issue us huemans cannot solve, but instead there are issues we will not solve because of hw inconvenient it is to those in power things like hunger, poverty and war still exist even tho we know so so much abou the world around us i then started to seek a sense of security in religion once again, deeply studing the many brances and applying the belief systems and dogmas in my daily life, i came to understand that religion is based on making the untangible tangible hte message has gotten lost in translation its become surrounded on the self and stained with mans hunger for power "my god is better than yours in every way " they sya to each other i cant identify with something so selfish and and stained after all of this i simply came to the realization that this world is just for experirience that i must accept things as they and as they will be i must not see these dfficuties as reasons to cry or ponder but i should see "difficulties" as challengues, test of will a test that i will pass with flying colors by spreading as much light as i possibly can i should learn not to worry for worrying is an easy way to complicate these challengues instead i will transmute those worries into prioritizng to not critize others and to not critize my circumstances instead have grattitue for the privilege of learning the privilege of being able to face chanllgeus the privilege to live another day." in between those realizations things had gotten ugly at my house , my father found out i was not serving jehovah so i had to leave once again, causing me to be homeless hopin from place to place to make a living. restarting the cycle once again when my mental health reached its end . im now back with my family in dominican republic undergoing the same circumstances idk how long ill be able to take it, everyday i crawl up into a ball pulling on my hair follicles because i cant express myself, because im being forced to be a watered down version of who i am for my families sake its hard to acclimate to the world without any resources, no mental or monetary help from the ones i love and want to be loved by , on top of that things are hard out there in general as a young person i feel like there isnt a place for me, like all the odds are somehow not in my favor regardless of what perspective i take , i no longer have anythign else to give, my mind cracks at the thought of sacrificing any other part of me for a cause that doesnt line up with my pov i know there isnt a problem us humans cannot solve , but there are many problems we will not solve because of how inconvenient it is to those in power. i care for things like helping our planet get back on its feet, and most of all helping those in need , my people , the ones who are also displaced ,hungry , just trying to survive right now im back in square one in the dominican republic im compromising my mental health and sense of expression and its reaching a point that i cant handle much longer. i realize i will continue to be here at square one because thats what being a cult product is about. i was never taught how to survive in this world in any shape way or form. instead i was taught how to survive from the world....and i no longer want to run so in conclusion i need help. Your help. i just want to be able to fly back to the place where i can be myself and work towards a purpose that fullfills me i can figure the ret out when i get there in terms of shelter and food.. i really really really just need to get out of here.

I managed to get out and now that I’m here I must figure the rest out 

I love you and thank you for even reading this ❤️❤️ wish me luck 

cost breakdown:

passport: 150

rent: 700$ + deposit (700)

application fee: 50$

Moving cost (50$ for subway)

food for two months: 250