Still, what happened affected me, and I couldn’t ignore it. I started having very intense panic attacks— something that never happened to me before. I couldn’t even enjoy “healthy” things like yoga because when I relaxed and closed my eyes i start to have shortness of breath, flashbacks, inability to shake certain images that flash over and over again.
I also began to suffer from major depressive disorder which slowly began to get more and more out of control.
These experiences got progressively worse over the past year, and have now developed into manic depressive episodes that have been leading to suicidal thoughts.
I think there is a great deal of stigma about mental health in our society, and I admit that creating this gofundme and being honest about my mental health is causing me massive anxiety and shame. Still, I would rather ask for help so that I can not only stay alive but heal.
I believe a combination of EMDR, cognitive behavior therapy, and temporary psychiatric medication would help my situation greatly improve.
The only problem is I can’t afford it.
It typically takes 6 sessions of EMDR (a method used to help veterans with PTSD) to see positive results for trauma patients. The cost for one session is $150.
In order to undergo psychiatric care, the initial visits for places I have found range from $300-$500 for the intital visit and around $200 for following sessions.
This amount would solely cover the EMDR sessions and the psychiatric care. It does not include cognitive behavioral therapy or any medication.
Often times suicide can be a chain reaction and I can understand why. I want to fight I just need a little help.
If you made it this far I really appreciate that alone. Any little bit helps, honestly.
Thank you ❤️