Help Leah Heal from Growing Up in Hell

Hi everyone,

Thank you for taking the time to read about me and what brings me to you, asking for your help.

I'm a survivor of severe childhood physical and sexual abuse at home. My mother also sold me to "the man with the brown belt" and I was raped, filmed, beaten, and brutalized in almost unimaginable ways.

I call myself a survivor because I am alive. But I'm not really living. The trauma is choking and smothering. The pain is blinding and agonizing. The flashbacks are gruesome and terrifying. And it's just all too much. I am struggling with suicidal thoughts. But I don't really want to die. I want to be a mother to my 2 precious children. I want to learn how to be a wife. But it's so incredibly hard.

I've been in therapy for 6 years and counting. And that cost me all the money I don't have. I'm running out of options. But without therapy, I will probably not make it.

Really, I need to go to an inpatient trauma program, but the cost is astronomical. So I am turning to you for help. I'm relying on the people who tell me that there are kind people in the world. That there are people who would be horrified by what was done to me and wouldn't think that I deserved to be raped, beaten, and filmed for violent porn.

Can you show me that mankind is kind? Can you help me survive? Can you give me a future?

Leah