Help Lay My Babies to Rest

You may or may not have known that I was almost 5 months along in my second pregnancy. I was expecting twins—a boy who would be named Anthony and a girl who would be named Isabel.

I went to the University of Utah on November 6th for a usual pregnancy checkup but also an anatomy ultrasound since I was at 19 weeks. Towards the end of the scan, I was notified that my cervix was measuring short and that a physical exam would be the next step. During the exam, they found that I was dilated to a 1 and my cervix was indeed short. The doctor recommended I have a procedure called a cervical cerclage at that point, which would have been optimal to do that day, but there was no doctor available, so I was scheduled to have surgery the next day.

By the next day, I returned ready to have the procedure. All they had to do was make sure there were no changes overnight. They did another physical exam, and sadly, within the last 24 hours, I had dilated to a 3, which wasn’t necessarily the problem, but it did complicate the surgery. The problem was that I was having active contractions. I stayed in the hospital the whole day to see if I could at any point continue with the surgery. I never stopped having contractions, though. I wanted to do and would have done LITERALLY ANYTHING I could in order for our babies to live. I wanted to stay in the hospital, do whatever surgeries/procedures needed to stay pregnant longer. We went through ALL options, scenarios, ideas, whatever. At the end of the day, there was literally nothing that could be done to prevent my body from giving birth. By the end of the night, I was dilated to a 10. I gave birth that night to my beautiful babies. They lived only for a short amount of time before passing away. My baby girl Isabel came first; she weighed .9 ounces, and my baby boy Anthony .8 ounces. I will always cherish the small amount of time I got to meet them and hold them in.

I’ve been a stay-at-home mom to my daughter Aaliyah for the past year and a half, and this came as a complete shock, obviously. There were no signs whatsoever that anything was wrong until that appointment. Anyway, this fundraiser is for the cost of the funeral. They will be buried together, but the price is still high. All money donated will be to pay for the plot of land, a casket, and a headstone. Thank you so, so much to anybody in advance. This is the worst thing I have ever gone through. This happened on November 7th, and I have honestly had a really hard time trying to put a funeral together all on my own. I have been procrastinating super bad, and I just need to get it done. My babies need to be buried and put to rest. Prayers and positive energy are also so much appreciated.