My fiancé William (Billy) Powers attempted to take his own life on September 24, 2022. We had an amazing day together. We cleaned up the house and went and had a picnic with pub subs before we went on a 1.5 mile hike with the dogs. We got home and started watching a movie and then I left to my friend house to do laundry. He texted me at 8:23 saying “Hey love did you make it there okay” and by 9:17 I got a call from Jacksonville Sheriff’s Office saying he was being transported to the hospital. They asked me to come back home and I arrived to crime scene tape all around my apartment. My heart sank. My poor honey. Billy was transported for a self inflicted gunshot to his face. After speaking to the officers and receiving confirmation of Billy’s status, I had to enter my house and then the officer left me to clean up the disaster. That has been my home for the last 9 months. I am completely traumatized and I am seeking help. How do I go look in the same mirror he did? I need help more than ever and I’m not okay. My whole life is crashing. I need to reset. I have to reset my entire “home”. This all took place in my home. All this darkness was behind my closed door. I have to stand in the same 4 walls he did. I am so thankful that life will go on for both of us. There is huge recovery in store for both us. Billy remains stable and responsive. I am just trying to take some time to reset my life. I haven’t even acknowledged anything I am going through cause how could I? My poor honey. I am at loss of words. I am afraid that with missing work I will fall behind on bills so I’m asking for help with necessities and just a little bit of time. I can’t go home right now. I can’t go home. I need to take some time off. I need to process what I am going through in a healthy manor. I need help and I am not okay.
Currently, I’m staying with a coworker who has been nothing but a great friend to me. She has been right by my side from the moment I got the call. I never ask for anything but right now …. I really need to know I am loved, that I do have support, that I am heard and acknowledged.
Updates will be provided as they come. Thank you to each and every person that has reached out to me and donated. Please also continue to share. Please continue to pray for his parents, children, and family. We are all devastated. Please pray for the medical staff and Billy’s full recovery.This is so sad and tragic. I love you all