I am HAPPY to have THIS update, although the last few weeks in my world have been a great challenge for me, some personal things I haven't dealt with in a while decided they wanted to creep back in. The last few weeks in my head, haven't been fun. I spent most of my time in bed, the FUNCTIONAL FREEZE has been REAL, I haven't experienced this in YEARS and I haven't missed it. From mental & physical burnout; from all the extreme pain I've been TRYING to ALCHEMIZE from my mouth issues the last 6 months, to not working for 5 months through the winter, to WORRYING ABOUT WOOD & BEING WARM, to the heartbreak I deal with daily from my oldest son not speaking to me, to FAKE 'FRIENDS' FUKING me over after I trusted them into my sacred space up here on the property I care take for, to my big baby being attacked again aaand THIS EXISTENCE in general.. IYKYK and I REALLY appreciate the ones that DO. I have done NOTHING but REFLECT and THINK... I'm SO very TIRED of living in a state of fight or flight. I have a lot of responsibilities here (including RENT now that I took over the main house by myself) and how I've been feeling physically; it just all became so heavy, I felt a bit defeated so in my manic mind, I had to CONVINCE myself maybe I need to go to break free of the FEAR in my head. AFTER DEEP, DEEP REFLECTION, mainly on how much I've worked to KEEP this place 3 years now, what it took to GET 'HERE,' and the most important part, HOW SAFE IT IS FOR ME -- I DO NOT WANT TO LEAVE THIS BEAUTIFUL SPACE. With this said, that means I have to come up with RENT still, my rent is $800 to live on 20 acres in northern California, in a beautiful home with my babies. I have $300 of it, I just need help with $500 more so I can SECURE MY PLACE HERE & think about my next move as far as HELP with the property from GOOD , CONSCIOUS individuals I can TRUST. The GOOD NEWS, OUR SUMMER SEASON BEGINS END OF MAY and I will be back to my side gigs and I'll be ok, I REALLY just need to raise $400 now, so I can BREATHE, SECURE MY SPOT and FIND some peace of mind and heart in it all. If you or anyone you know can help me with THIS month, I would be SO APPRECIATIVE and I ALWAYS PAY IT FORWARD.

I am MOST GRATEFUL for the monetary and heartfelt support right now, it's tough being vulnerable; but THIS is REAL LIFE for me, AND I KNOW TRAGICALLY, MANY OTHERS.

THANK YOU for taking the time to read. I have created the go fund me for myself, I also have cash app if that's easier.

Much love,

Kelly