Help Justin with his bucket list

Hey, my name is Justin.

For the last three years I've been fighting cancer. To catch you up so far:

- January 2019 was when I was diagnosed with colorectal cancer.

- For the next few months I had daily radiation treatment and took chemo pills.

- In June 2019 I had both my colon and rectum removed via surgery.

- During fall 2019 I had chemotherapy.

- January 2020 they found the cancer spread to my liver and removed part of it.

- Fall 2020 was another couple months of chemotherapy.

- November 2021 was when they decided to perform surgery on my left lung because they found cancer there.

And that brings us to today, February 2022.

This morning I got a call from the kind lady who has been overseeing my cancer treatment for the last three years. My CT scan results came in and well... It doesn't look good.

There's no real easy way to say this, but the cancer is terminal... There are too many nodes in my right lung and new ones in my abdomen. Chemo can shrink them, which will help for a while, but eventually the nodes will stop responding to it. I was barely keeping it together over the phone so I ended the call before asking too many questions. I'll be calling them back tomorrow to see what my timeline is like, and if there are any experimental treatment or if something like a transplant is an option and I will update as I know more.

Today's been so hard as I try to wrap my head around the thought of leaving this world. Stress, anxiety, depression, and fear all have been at their highest levels.

I'm going to try and take things one day at a time. So many things to think about and arrange. I'm going to start a bucket list. I need to live each day to its fullest. Enjoy the time I have left with the family and friends that have been there for me these last 3 years.

If you would like to help me do the things I want to do, any and all donations or shares would be tremendously appreciated.

To end, I will leave you all with my favorite quote.

"Remember to look up at the stars and not down at your feet. Try to make sense of what you see and wonder about what makes the universe exist. Be curious. And however difficult life may seem, there is always something you can do and succeed at.

It matters that you don't just give up." - Stephen Hawking