Help Jordan Afford Medical Transition

2024 Update:

Hey everyone, thankyou so much for your ongoing support. I'm currently arranging to go for Vocal Feminisation Surgery in April 2024, and help raising funds to go towards this. Despite having to take time off of work after having FFS in March 2023, I've been working to save for this next procedure, however the cost of living crisis has made this difficult to do so.

My voice is a huge cause of dysphoria for me, as the general pitch is far lower than the average woman's voice tends to be. This draws unwanted attention to me and causes me to not want to speak to others in public that aren't very close to me, or on the phone either, as I'm typically still misgendered over the phone. Vocal Feminisation Surgery will help raise the pitch and resonance of my voice and reduce the size of the Adam's Apple. It won't make me Ariana Grande but it will help to improve my speaking voice drastically, giving me more comfort in public.

Out of the total £4979 raised as of 17/11/2023, £4500 has already been used for my first round of Facial Feminisation Surgery in March 2023.

No donation is too small, and any help or sharing of this fundraiser is greatly appreciated.

Lots of love,

Jordan. x

2023 Update:

So far the first 4.5k raised has helped me access Facial Feminisation Surgery.

I still have a long way to go in my medical transition and need your help to be able to afford:

-Adam’s Apple removal/Vocal feminisation

-Breast augmentation

Having had FFS, I’ve noticed a marked decrease in street harassment and negative attention in public, this has helped me move through the world with more ease.

I do however still struggle greatly with my voice, and the appearance of my adam’s apple.

My breast area is also a cause of dysphoria, as my growth over the last 2 years has been very minimal, and has given me abnormally far apart breasts that make me uncomfortable.

Any help in raising funds to address these issues and move forward with my transition is greatly appreciated.

Lots of love,

Jordan.

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TLDR if you're short on time: I've been desiring facial feminisation surgery for roughly 5 years now, to alleviate gender dysphoria, due to moving countries for more work opportunities, getting started in a new place, the pandemic and cost of living, saving money for this has incredibly difficult and a slow process. Any help towards this is literally life changing and greatly appreciated.

 

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---A little background:

Dear reader,

 

For any of you who knew me as a young child, you may recall:

 

 

All fairly frivolous, juvenile things, and not necessarily solid evidence of a child's internal gender identity.

 

However, for me, that was and is precisely the case.

 

I was already aware of the physical differences between myself and my girl friends from a fairly young age, in a completely innocent way. However, something I've only come to understand in retrospect as an adult is that despite knowing of these physical differences, I never thought of myself, as a person, as a mind, as being any different from those girls who were and are still my dearest, closest friends and sisters.

 

I shut much of this away to protect myself in my pre-teens, through till my late teens, somehow forgot that this was who I always was and then didn't realise it again until I was 23 years old. This year I started Hormone Replacement Therapy at age 27, after 4 years of living in fear over what hormones could do to my body, and aspects of my physicality that I, as someone brought up through dance and acrobatics, associated deeply with my own self-worth. That fear was so misplaced and based on misinformation and years of being surrounded by people who didn't know any better. I've not felt this happy and myself in close to 10 years.

 

This brings me to the next step in my gender transition journey.

 

---Facial Feminisation Surgery.

 

Some of you may think I'm already very feminine looking and "pretty."

 

However, I'm read as male by strangers 100% of the time. This is distressing to me to the point where I disassociate from myself and bottle it up, gaslighting myself into pretending this isn't my reality, and as a result, I've become incredibly closed off from the world and extremely bitter, and feel unable and unwilling to forge new relationships with people. Because so few are able to understand that the Me they see is not truly me.

I struggle to leave the house 100% of the time.

I dress myself back into the closet on a daily basis except when inside the safety of my flat or the relative safety of one of my regular gigs.

I can't explain how depressing it is waking up to a face that essentially doesn't accurately portray you.

Despite learning makeup techniques, to do my best to feminise and lift what i've got, how exhausting the daily repetition, year after year, is and how increasingly limited the results have been.

 

I've used dermal filler to create a more feminine look, but the reality is that fillers cannot shrink or remove bone.

 

I feel I cannot interact well with the world around me because my appearance is not true to who I am.

 

I've done "just trying to love myself" for the past 8 years, and that has been largely unsuccessful.

 

I've known for years now that Facial feminisation surgery is something I've wanted, but I've been too afraid to ask for help in reaching that goal, and I've fooled myself into living in denial about it. No longer.

This surgery will help undo the effects of a testosterone based puberty, giving me the face I should have had. It is not to beautify, yassify, or snatch me in any way. It is medical and recognised as such by WPATH* standard of care guidelines.

I have done my best despite the pandemic, which drained all of my savings, to work hard and frequently, to save towards this goal. Due to the current cost of living crisis in the UK saving for this is going to continue to be a struggle.

 

---Costs:

I am asking for a starting goal of £20, 000, after consultation with multiple surgeons at:

-Facial Team (Spain) and I

-D Hospital (South Korea)

-2 Pass clinic Belgium

-Dr Rossi at T change

-Dr Anna Sluzky

And receiving their subsequent quotes and recommended procedures.

 

At the bottom, I've attached one quote from my 2pass Clinic consultation below for a rough idea of what FFS will cost.

 

I am asking for an amount that covers the bulk cost of these procedures averaged between the different prices of each surgeon.

 

I am asking for £20,000 To cover the cost of:

 

-Forehead recontouring type 3 (reconstruction) with hairline

recontouring and browlift (including orbital rim shaving)

-Rhinoplasty (Please note that this will also help correct a breathing problem I have where one of my nasal passages is so collapsed I have to use nasal expanders every night to be able to sleep and breathe properly.)

-Jaw angle reduction and chin recontouring (with sliding

genioplasty) and liposuction under the chin if needed

-Vocal feminisation surgery to help feminise my voice

-Lipofilling cheeks + nasolabial folds

 

Being able to reach this goal and finally, by the time I'm 30 have a face that truly shows who I am will be absolutely life-changing. This is something I've known was right for me but denied myself from trying to reach for, for years, and this is a vital step in my transition and one that will change my life for the better.

 

I understand many of you are going through hardships yourself, so I only ask that you donate what you can afford and please share this fundraiser as much as you can.

 

I'm here or on Instagram as @jordana_rev if you wish to get in touch about payment or any other support you may wish to offer.

 

Eternal gratitude,

 

Jordan.

 

*World Professional Association for Transgender Health