Help Johnny Tedeschi in His Fight for Life!

Good morning family and friends it's Sunday June 21st. Before I get started first and foremost I want to wish everybody a happy Sunday blessings to all and well wishes to their friends families and others I want to thank everybody who participated and read and watched some of my unwatchable videos and took the time out to thank me for sharing and being part of my life thank you for all your encouraging words thank you for all your support we all pray together that this would get better and that someday I would be fully recovered as we all know I am a believer of God I do have a relationship with Jesus and sometimes just because you're on the right side of the law it doesn't mean you're going to get out of every situation I love all of you for getting involved I've gotten closer to some than others you all know who you are I also want to thank the ones that help financially and I can't go on with names but I'm sure I'm going to forget it's not on purpose it's at the brain is just functioning I have capacity it came up half but I meant half I'm not going to keep doing that over no strength today I just want to let everybody know Chris Day John Bobby Lewis oh here we go I'm going to end up sending out more apologies than usual my boss my coworkers everybody here at the hotel the owner of the hotel the maintenance man at the hotel Jimmy Cal Kim Miss Kathy Miss Mary and her husband wow I know I'm forgetting millions let me get him over with now before before I forget my little angel my little Mr short Mr James short if God made more like him this world would be a whole better place the guy who came a friend out of nowhere the guy that you can count on that people would pay millions of dollars to have a long time he's not even a price tag you put on this guy's head the things that he is kind of his way to do for me and I realize even going through this I am a pain in the ass and I just totally totally want to thank him up with me for being my friend for having a shoulder there to lean on and I can go on all day just on him but let's get him out of the way because he's the longest but I got friends from Jersey family from Jersey that have been with me but I'm glad it's coming to an end! Besides James besides Cal besides every worker that works their ass off here at this hotel day in and day out Ms Kathy Miss Mary I can go on doing this first thing in the morning was not a good idea I love you guys I appreciate you thank you for Delilah Delilah is Noah's partner that's been here through thick and thin and always rushes to know his side but she's a real good poodle and they became close I just want to thank everybody and thank him and thank him and thank him between the medication loss of brain pain sadness have compassion on people that you see go through cancer because we just I guess we see it so much that we just let it roll off our back because we think it's normal and part of life it is pure torture whether you have Jesus in your life God in your life Christian faith faith groups in your life you need to be strong in your faith with God because this is your help my last results aren't good at all we're trying to pull this lymph node off my esophagus by next week we go every day to radiation except Saturday and Sunday because your office is closed so here I sit wait until Monday to burn out another piece of this cancerous poison that Satan decided to place all over my body including in the middle of my throat the back of my heart bottom of my brain in my lungs in my esophagus in my chest the worst place possible but I will tell you I've met a lot of great people and without this pain I would not understand the definition of cancer just like people ask if I would give my drug addiction days and live a whole new life if I could and the answer to that is a big fat no I wouldn't give up my struggles to live a drug-free life growing up if I could have avoided all the messes and problems I dug myself into because if I didn't go through all that stuff I would not be knowledgeable I would not be educated and I would not know what it was like to talk and listen and be around others with that serious disease so I'm supposed to be right where God wants me so here I said again with another disease and people ask me would you dump it off where'd you get rid of it I gave you the opportunity to never feel what it feels like any answer today I will take so much pain just to be educated and knowledgeable about a situation that I pretty much uneducated all about so here I sit dying slowly I'm paying for you God by my side watching me the whole way promising me as long as I stay by your side witness to his word love love for him always that I will be promised a place with no pain a lot of love and finally a pain free and addiction free place that I can live forever once this is all over so for the prize I will work my ass off and do what I have to do to be the best son to be the best friend to be the best testimony God could have asked for I love you Jesus I love you God I'm so sorry that I let you down I just want to be over I want you to come take the pain away you know I want healing and you know I want to get better roll around we both know it's not happening that way it's not happening that way I'm going out fast and furious hard and furious I'm going to keep fighting we'll finish this radiation and I'm going to finish the rapy and if I get better I get better and if I don't get better guess what just go back to doing what I've been doing love and others making people laugh making people smile tell them I love them at all times I jumped around a little bit today I hope you'll understand why financially do I need some help yes but I feel like a fool asking because like I said it's the same people over and over I don't want to hit them up I will tell you this the hospice is going to step in in about 2 or 3 weeks they have been here I have gotten approved but I'm still on my feet and as long as I'm doing any kind of treatments they cannot financially step in the minute that I let Go treatment they will step in and pay my rent pay my bills leave me and take care of my dog and take care of the hospitals so I'm hoping that it happens so the real problems financially can go away the real problems too oh Lord I appreciate you looking over me through the pain through the sadness through the loneliness thank you for all the friends have been there that have come to my side when they could not many cuz I'm in Georgia and is not many friends I have in Georgia so except James and his son and not true love love all you guys and just pray for a softer landing you know if you can see tribute great that would help for food cuz I want you guys to know where it's going it's going for food I get $15 a week and food stamps and if you knew me back in the day even now $15 a day is pretty much impossible a week good thing I'm not a weed smoker but I will tell you this anything would help not like I'm going out doing the two step and this shape I probably doing the 25 step but I'm not going anywhere I love you guys and I appreciate you and if you can help out a little bit that would be super super great towards my rent and bills that's where we're going I'll keep you posted at all times of how much I need and who is going to I would appreciate it I truly love you guys either way you become my new family stick with it I've been find it pretty fun and I'm using to get on here with you guys and start sending messages back and forth to people I've never met before. Thank you for calling me friend and hopefully we'll meet again on the other side I'm trying to push for the 3-month train I don't know how long the doctor doesn't like to give exact times he goes by what he sees on film and you know with me and God who knows I can wake up tomorrow and everything will be out of my system and I'll be driving a truck again on the other hand we know the worst case scenario is we're going to have to speak them because the devil does a great job for us again the devil's not winning by any means by taking his body all he's doing is getting a piece of dried up old skin and we all know what we do we try to pull the skin we toss it so right now I'm happy with what I'm offering saying and that's right he will not get my soul he will not get my mind he will not get my faith he will not get my smiles you will not get my happiness he might bring me some other feelings I don't want like pain like sadness like crying but that's okay he's so desperate he'll take anything that's a desperate man right there for you and you know what even to the desperate and evil God's taught me to give and to love so here you are saying take the skin that you're slowly destroy him but you're not taking my mind no matter how much pain I mean I love all of you I hope to hear from you again today and if not you'll hear from me cuz I got nothing better to do I love you guys I love you girls thanks for everything you've done thanks for the snacks the dreams the cuddles everything you guys do for me I appreciate it and I felt every second going into that final resting spot it feels so comforting and so loving and so relaxing thank you Jesus thank you so much as you saying someday maybe you got to leave me down your path for some certain reason let's hope not let's hope not and for the times I slipped and fell down your path oh well I'm still talking again to all my friends to all my family thank you for giving what you could you know donating some time don't eat some money I don't wish this disease on anybody so thank you for whatever role you took in this part of my life I appreciate you and the roles didn't take doesn't matter as long as you were there as long as you love others and make someone smile you made me happy I love you Jesus I love you God Dad I know I didn't do much to make you proud I never met you you died when I was one and Mom most of your life you saw a son smoking crack and going nowhere so I hope this proved you from up above and even though I'm not perfect son I didn't quit and I always loved others I love you and I appreciate everything everybody's done I pray that everybody has a blessed life and I pray that everybody finds Jesus Christ I pray all this in God's name and for the people that don't believe in God and think he's not real wake up cuz God is real God is real Jesus is real he's watching over every one of us every one of us he will never abandon us leave us not love us he will be there at all times 24 hours a day please believe me and if I can come back somehow somewhere when this is all over I will and stand in front of your face to face and and I would stand in front of you and say remember that idiot on Facebook my lady is standing right in front of you idiot not lady I think that auto stuff tries to put its own crap in and say lady that'd be a good disguise though I love you guys appreciate everything you've done for me God is real God is real God is real I promise you God is real as I get on my knees as I cry for relief of this pain I say God is real God loves us God loves you God loves me God loves everyone that's listening to this God watch over everybody show them in some way or another that you were here 24 hours a day I love you Jesus Christ I love you I love you I love you always and threes and remember one word Joy it's always Jesus others and then yourselves and that spells Joy listen to Christian contemporary music listen to people like Dr Jeremiah whoever you may choose but remember it's not the person a homeless man can give you a message that can make you so excited your pants will fall off and I mean that I've talked to some guys that you want to go five feet away from and I'll walk away feeling so much of God's love speaking through them so please don't judge people don't automatically make a decision that they are in college because they do this they look like that who cares what other people think when you walk away from somebody you feel like you've learned something put it upstairs in that brain that God made you turn it on shake it up a little bit like a like a blender and see what comes out the best advice from the weirdest places but always remember this when it's good it's from God when it's bad it's saying so until we meet again my friends and my family yes I can use some help if you can you guys got my GoFundMe page I would really appreciate it and I would say maybe another month and a half 2 months of being healthy enough where I can still eat some solid food and enjoy so it probably would go mostly for food and rent is next two weeks cuz then they're supposed to pick up the rent but I'd still like to get some good food at some point I'm not going to do that so if you can help out great and if you can't I still love you I still want to talk to you every week you being here for me on the phone you being here for me by my side is more important than any amount of value any amount of money you can put on it but if you would like to I would appreciate it and I trust me hopefully I'll be out of here so I can take some pictures and send you what I'm eating so you guys know what's going for a good cause a good fattening cause I love you guys I can talk all day have a blessed Sunday is it Sunday I totally forgot it doesn't really matter at this point love you guys enjoy your families tell them you love them make some smile make someone laugh be kind compliment goes a long way God bless and have a wonderful Sunday thanks thank you for all the tears and all smiles you have brought me big kiss