Finding myself also meant finding out the truth.

Coming to the world on this small but such big place aka internet wasn't ever something I thought I'd dare do. However, the truth is I'm a 34-year-old who is, in fact, and has been raising my son alone as it goes for parents. I've recently come to terms that the only family I had (my own mother) has been on the verge of a very nasty plot alongside my son's donor (bio dad, if you will). I've been separated from him for almost 10 years now, and it was me who left. I was young with no guidance growing up and ended up with someone who has been nothing but a menace. Never held a job, no friend circle, no education, all-around victim mentality having male. I was the only one who had ever helped or cared for him between the ages of 14 until I was about 21-22 years of age when I had finally had enough, grew up, and left. Since then, he's only become worse and is extremely jealous of my peace of mind and the fact I've healed from the trauma I gained from those years I had spent with him. Now, being I am 34, I've learned who my mom truly is. Before, I paid no real mind being I was off living my life, and I figured, "That's my mom, and she has her own life as well." It wasn't until my son and I had to move in with her due to my recent job loss because the school I had gotten loans on was found out to be corrupt and basically fraudulent. So anyone who had received any diploma, certificate, etc., now was deemed as complete b/s. (Excuse my language.) Anyway, living with her, I now learned she had no circle of friends and/or a close friend, no partner, or even social life. She became overly obsessed with my life as well as my son's life. Being overly controlling, telling him he wouldn't like going to places almost like she wanted him home in his room to suck the energy from him, absorb his aura. Geez, who really knows? So I had noticed anytime I shared good news with her, that good news turned sour within days, sometimes hours. So to save all of you from what is obvious... Finding out my mom and ex have not only been seeing one another (if you could call it that), only saying this because they have been threatening my son to keep the whole thing a secret from me... Now why would anyone do that? To their own child and/or grandson? It's her home we live in; she can have whomever over, but you chose to keep it hidden from me while involving my son who, by the way, is on the spectrum. So his dad has never really been in his life. However, the times he has been for the last, what, 4 years wasn't due to me allowing it because of the shitty person this "dad" is but because my mother betrayed not only me but her grandson and allowed this to go on. And when his dad came around, it wasn't to spend time or get to know his son; it was to seek revenge on his own child for having a place to live and get in the way of that by convincing this older lady who's lonely with no life nor friends and clearly is just as sick as he is that her daughter deserves all this while they both had been threatening my son to keep hush.

Im asking for help in getting an attorney i know will actually fight and not only fight but feel obligated to bring justice to folks who think its ok to do any of this too, especially when a kid has been dragged into it without choice. So much has come to the surface. It's overwhelming, hurtful, and truthfully beyond anything I could have imagined.

She was the only family I had, alongside my son.

I want nothing more than to break ties and go separate ways. For the sake and sanity of my son Marqese. I feel like he has been through enough to where I want nothing less than peace for him and myself. The way to that is by getting the right person to literally save our lives.

I'm Jessie.

I'm 34 years old, and I'm here hoping someone hears me.