Hello. My name is Jenna and this has been the hardest year of my life. Last summer my partner of 7 years that I though was my forever part, informed me that she was leaving me and taking out dog and moving back to her hometown across the country in New Hampshire. A lot of difficult things happened for us in the last few years and she couldn’t be there for anyone anymore and wanted to be alone. The morning after she told me this, my mother died. I have gone through so much in the past 12 months. Outpatient treatment for alcohol relapse while I was planning my mom’s funeral. Losing my job over a technicality on my Leave of Absence paperwork. Not having a consistent roommate since. I had to put in my notice because I could not afford to live there anymore and I knew I would be evicted. I currently work as a paraeducator for special ed at an elementary school. I’m very good at it and I care for the students a lot, but the work can be extremely draining. I’m currently living at a motel 6 with my two cats. My cats need to go to the vet, i haven’t been able to rid them of their most recent fleas. They don’t get them often but when they do I’m usually able to get it under control quickly and efficiently with over the counter medicine but not this time. I still owe last months rent in my previous apartment I just moved out of. When the school year ends I will be going into inpatient treatment and finding foster care for my two angel boys that are the light of my life. Any help anyone can send along will help me stay in a motel and out of my car and and pay back rent so I don’t have to go to court. I miss my mom like crazy. I do not have a lot of support in Portland. I want to get better so I can remember what it’s like to be happy and I want the time I’m seperated from my boys to be the smallest time possible. The reason I didn’t go to inpatient treatment a year ago when I relapsed while planning my mothers funeral and watching my partner move out of our house with our dog, is because I didn’t have anyone to watch them. But I know it’s important for me to have some inpatient time. Anything anyone can do or share would be hugely helpful. The photos of me in the hospital are from just a couple weeks ago, the ER doctor saved my life and I was admitted to the hospital for several days after that. I feel so alone and sad.