Help Jason Secure Mental Health Treatment

Most of you already know my name, Jason. I'm coming up on my 6 year Sober Anniversary which is great but battling for my life and trying to take control of my mental and physical health. Recently a therapist told me how substance abuse can sometimes be a blessing because it makes you realize mental health problems someone has but wasn't aware of and that's where I find myself currently. I tried to commit suicide last December because my situation was desperate and dire. I don't want that to happen again but I know if something doesn't change, my life doesn't stand a chance. I'll either lose it to relapse or lose it to suicide and that's not something I want. I want the chance to find out what is wrong with my brain and to get a proper diagnosis so I can live my life. Between dealing with Lupus, taking care of my sobriety, and battling my mental health every day, I am in a position where I need a different kind of care, whether that's Inpatient longterm Psychiatric Treatment or Intensive Outpatient treatment for Psychiatric care. I'm stepping back from school this semester to focus on my mental health care and I need help doing so. The money I am asking for is to help me discover which care I will realistically be able to afford to make happen. I'd love to. be able to stay in my apartment, have the kitties with me, and know I have a home to come back to once I'm out of treatment. Anything less than what I am looking for will force me to seek other homes for the kitties, get rid of as much as I can and put the rest of my things into storage, go through treatment, and I'll use whatever funds I raise to pay for the expenses I'll have wherever I end up after treatment.

My whole life I've taken care of everyone else but this is for myself. I don't have family to lean on for help, a partner, or friends close by who can help me how I need. That's just a fact. It's significantly more difficult for someone in my position to make it and I am trying to do everything I can to make sure I'm not a statistic. I don't want to live or feel like this any longer. When you wake up and go to bed every day wishing you weren't alive, that's a hard life to live and for me, I have been living like that for well over a year. I've been trying everything I know to do, reaching out to places to find resources, etc. I've been looking for work for months and not been able to find anything. One person can only take so much and I hope the people who care about me most can rally around me and help me get the care I need and that I know will ensure I am taken care of properly and given a chance to change my life for the better. I may be sober but my mental health is the worse it ever been and Psychiatric Inpatient care is what was decided to be the best option for me.

Any small amount counts and if you can't help, please share this to your own accounts where others may be willing to help.

I'm coming up on my 6 years Sober Anniversary and my 46th birthday on December 27th. The best gift for me would be to complete my goal and go into treatment immediately so I can be one step closer to having a health mind and getting the right diagnosis to be able to apply for disability care. I'm screaming to the rooftops for help and continually looking for resources every day.

I don't want to die but I can't live like this anymore. It's an unimagineable pain I never thought would be more difficult to fight than addiction.

To all of my friends and loved ones, please help however you can. Every little bit helps. Thank you for loving and believing in me.