Never in a million years did I think I would be writing one of these for myself. It is the hardest thing I've ever had to do. To admit defeat. To be humbled to my knees. I have been a survivor my entire life and have always climbed my way out of any holes I've been in.

2024 has been the hardest year of my entire life. I don't think I'm unique in that. I started off the year having to check myself into an intensive outpatient program for depression, anxiety, and PTSD. It saved my life and was the most amazing thing I have ever done for myself.

Having taken months of leave for a portion of my salary and then getting hit with a giant bill put me behind. I'm not going to bore you with all of the other nitty-gritty details of broken-down cars and emergency surgery for animals. The straw that has broken this camel's back is losing my job a couple of months ago. I thought I would have no problem rebounding, but I've been struggling to even get an interview.

As you know, I have 2 adopted special needs boys that require a lot of flexible time and expensive medication. I have also supported my mom, who has lived with me for the last 9 years.

I have run out of options. I'm behind on my mortgage and bills and have no way of covering the next month or two while I continue to job hunt. I cannot lose my house, y'all.

I set my goal for what would get me out of the hole.

I would truly appreciate any help offered; job leads, love, luck, notes of encouragement, prayers; anything will make me nothing short of the most grateful person on the planet.

Much love,

Janae