Help Jamie With A New Nest

I can't express how difficult this is for me to do, but I really need help and I can't keep doing this on my own...I know it's a massive ask in these times.

I live in a 1960s dilapidated mobile home on the Oregon Coast. My ex and I purchased it 6 years ago with the intention to immediately build a nice little home on the tiny square piece of land-plans which almost immediately fell apart, including the marriage.

 

Presently I am on year 5 of living solo with no heat, no reliable electric (other than what a few extension cords haphazardly allow), in a very unstable and unhealthy home that needs to be torn down, while trying to pay the current mortgage and bills from my work as a local photographer and biologist.

 

I've tried since the divorce to make a name for myself, but with worsening chronic health conditions (I have a rare bone disease that causes intense constant pain, and has now spurred on other worsening conditions like my hormones being very out of wack, my thyroid crashing etc), paired with the worsening living conditions, a pandemic, long term depression, a severe anxiety disorder, lots of relationship trauma I'm trying to heal, all while trying to make a life in survival mode under the poverty line- I can never get even muchless ahead, no matter how hard I try. I attempt to save money only to have to get new tires, or another Dr appt, have a health issue come up,  or a house emergency that drains the few hundred saved. I've put off asking for help, because there are countless people in similar situations, if not worse. It can always get worse, so I always felt i needed to just be quiet and be thankful...but I can't keep pushing this down internally anymore. I'm at a breaking point, I can't keep up the charade.  Friends I consider family keep reminding me that closing my pain off doesn't allow room for help or growth, which I really really need. I am a deep believer in community care and helping anyone however they may need, it's just very difficult to admit that I need help now, and have for quite awhile.

 

The old mobile I'm currently suriving in, has mold, is always damp and musty, is cold, is very dark, and not safe for someone to be living in, especially someone with hands full of health conditions. The floors are caving in, leaving 6ft+ holes throughout the house that I or B (my dog) fall into and get hurt. The temperature is always whatever the outside temperature is, which is especially difficult during the long dark and wet winters here on the coast,  especially with chronic pain. Rats, mice, birds, and now bats have moved in and are constantly a source of concern, especially when they die in the walls or under the house. The dry rotting is leaving my walls and door frames crumbling to the touch. Electricians and contractors won't come near the place, they all say it needs to be torn down because it is so unsafe in every way. There is no renovating it, and patch jobs have only gotten me this far but now are failing.

 

I need help.

I need a safe, healthy, simple home.

I've done years of looking into how to start start fix this situation, and it just gets more overwhelming...to tear down and dispose of the old mobile, it would minimum cost 30k (just checked and actually now the price is to 45k, thanks pandemic) due to the age and outdated unsafe materials the house was constructed with. Best part is, the prices of doing any of this get higher the more I wait, so here we are.

80k would cover the tear down and removal of the current place, and allow me to put a down-payment on a new simple 800sq ft mobile to be dropped on my current foundation. It wouldn't cover all of it, that comes to the tune of 200+k, but if I could at least have enough to demo and get some money down on a newer mobile that could last me the rest of my life here, that would be absolutely beyond life changing. ❤

I know this is a lot to ask. Any and all help is deeply and sincerely appreciated more than I could ever fully express.
I love yous. 

Humbly, 
-Jamie