I am having an procedure done on December 6th. It is not a hysterectomy, but if this procedure doesn't work, that will be the next step.
As some of you know I have had female problems for at least 4 years now. For those that don't know, I will spare you the details, but I will tell you that when I told my current doctor, she was horrified and amazed that I lasted this long. It has effected my health, my body, my mental health, my all around life. I have spent days in bed because I do not have the strength to move, or even too depressed to move. It has caused migraines, panic attacks, a major hit on my depression, and many, many sleepless nights. Cancelled plans, no energy to go out, even do basic things around the home. It has gotten a bit better, but only because of a med that I am taking. I can't take this med long because of my age, and the problem I'm having, it has a higher risk of me getting a stroke. It was only a stopgap, so the procedure has to be done.
I knew the solution to this would be surgery. I held off as long as I could because I knew it would be expensive. Our insurance through Shan's job, Art Van, is so much better than his last job, Thank God. But I am still going to owe I'm thinking at least $800 to $1000 when it's done.
I am not asking for money, per se. I'm asking to let me work for it. I am making wreaths, and have my two side gigs Thirty-One and Scentsy. I realize that these things may or may not be your thing. Or you can't afford to help (trust me, I KNOW THAT FEELING). I'm asking if you would help spread the word to your family, friends, coworkers, whomever you may think might be interested. I won't be pushy with this, this will be the only post I make asking for help.
I already work 2 jobs. And lucky for those 2 since they are pretty flexible with me. Right now, I am not capable of holding down a "normal" full time job. Mentally and physically I just can't. I have friends who can attest how much this has taken a toll on me, so please know that if this was not a big deal, I wouldn't be posting this.
I have no idea how to end this. I'm scared that we will not be able to afford this. That it won't work. That I won't be able to be my old self again. I'm scared that this post will offend or piss off someone. I'm just plain scared.