Help me rebuild my life after my ex's abuse

I'm Sorry, Please Forgive Me, Thank You, I Love You

I'm not someone who likes asking for help, but I'm desperate; My lease ends September 18th, 2024.

I have spent 5 years of my life afraid to be myself, I was being told to be proactive rather than reactive by my ex-boyfriend who was abusing me, taking advantage of me financially, and gaslighting me with false promises primarily related to employment, which he couldn't keep.

I never stopped working, but I couldn't get my ex-boyfriend to get or to even look for a job. He lied about everything, he hurt me for asking him to look for a job. He left me with an excessive financial debt, and I can't support myself.

My mother passed away from hospital neglect and other causes this past April. There was no money, just her belongings that were left to her husband (Who suffers from schizoaffective disorder). I was cast away from my blood family as if I hadn't been there for her, being called the black sheep. Toxic family ego at its worst. I couldn't even find my voice to tell someone, though I tried.

I'm alone and scared. I can't guarantee that I can pay rent month after month. My lease is up September 18th, I am struggling to find a vehicle and a place for myself and two precious cats.

I would use the funds for:

♡ A car for a low price that I can pay it off now.

◇ The car will me keep a job.

♤ I will use it for an apartment in a more affordable location.

♧ Survive. I am considering taking barber school classes in the future once I'm stable.

But I can't begin my life if I can't afford to live.

My apartment has black mold, I’m having issues breathing. I need to make appointments without a car to find out the extent of the damage to my breathing and lungs…

This was days before my mom was in the hospital and I was saying goodbye to my mom in make up but I don’t wear make up, my family didn’t notice.

I was told after this assault was made; that I was dead to him for making his dad cry, for telling his family he was abusive.

I have no vehicle to get to my job. I need a second job to afford to move my life forward. The car will help me get to and keep my part time job & hopefully soon a second job.

I am learning how to make my life mine. I am learning to love myself again. I woke up, I am learning as I grow spiritually, I have a long journey ahead. But, never let a man hit you, especially more than once.

I'm alone, financially broke, with no car, soon to be homeless. My ex-boyfriend moved out of state with his parents. He's not welcome in my home. He's in my past, but I do hope he heals so no one else will get a fist to the face.

But I have my friends who are my family. My own blood family has been super toxic. I'm scared for the future. I'm not sure how I'm going to afford to move on.

Please help, your donations will help me afford a car so I can afford to get to work and eventually move to a lower cost area and begin my journey as myself and be happy, truly happy.

I was so happy in this picture! I left him home and saw my favorite artist Koven.

Please help me find more hope and happiness, so I won't be homeless.

I Love You, Thank You, Please Share.