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Help Hannah access treatment for her Anorexia

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Age 13, 6 and a half years ago, I developed anorexia nervosa and for 6 and a half years it has totally consumed every aspect of my life. I have lost countless friends, missed years of school and lost out on many opportunities. Now, aged 20, I am sick and tired of living this half life ruled by the thought that I do not deserve to eat. Anorexia is a complex illness, far deeper than just food however and throughout the years of being unwell, I have not been able to explore that and get to the roots of my issues. 

I have spent over 3 years of my life in eating disorder units which has left with with trauma, severe attachments and not actually helped or aided any long term recovery. I have always been clear that in order to recover, I must choose it and lead it with the right support to do so. However, NHS it not well enough funded to support me and since being discharged from hospital in January, I have received 
no support to recover other than inpatient. This has left me not only struggling and frightened as I desperately want to recover, but put extreme pressure on my parents to become my psychologists, dieticians, therapists, support workers, and carers, let alone being parents. Our relationship is hanging on by a thin thread and although they have tried and tried, they are burnt out and worn down, as am I. My mum has spent close to 24/7 with me for the last 7 months, from sleeping in my room every night to standing outside my bedroom whilst I change. My dad has spent hours and hours trying to get me more support, countless emails, phone calls and conversations, escalating to the head of Oxford NHS and and lawyers. As a family, we are exhausted. I have had over 45 police and ambulance visits in the last 5 months, the emergency services have literally been trying to hold me and my family together as mental health services cannot/will not. The waiting list for my local service is 2 years long and last March, there was 5 staff to manage over 1000 patients (not including the waiting list!). ED services in a crisis and I am not the only one who is suffering from this. 

Unfortunately, my weight has suffered and I am back inpatient for the 6th time as it is no longer safe for me to be at home. However, there is a clear agreement that it does not aid my recovery, just sort me physically although anorexia is a mental illness so that is just a short term solution. I am going to be having some assessments to try and have a clear idea of the issues I am facing and then address them appropriately, which will most likely lead to partaking in DBT as well as intense daypatient to support me whilst looking at the roots of my issues or trauma therapy.

I have set up a GoFundMe with a fair bit of reluctance- asking for money is not the easiest thing to do, especially when people tell you it’s a choice to recover and eat. (It is, but it can often feel like jumping into fire). I hope that with the right treatment, I will be able to give back, whether that’s shoring my story or inspiring others. 

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  • Rene Maiwald
    • £20 
    • 3 mos
  • Natalie Ryder
    • £5 
    • 7 mos
  • Anonymous
    • £100 
    • 1 yr
  • Anonymous
    • £20 
    • 1 yr
  • Emma Green
    • £20 
    • 2 yrs
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Hannah Larkin
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England
Stuart Larkin
Beneficiary

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