Hi friends my name is Ian, I'm autistic and have struggled with many things for a long time. Please don't think im trying to get pity because I'm genuinely suffering and feeling lost. My anxiety is crippling but im still trying to take care of myself but I just can't and I really need help. I've been living on the road for the past few weeks but my car is constantly having new problems. I had to replace the gasket seals and the exhaust manifold and the tires over and over until I figured out what was causing the problem and now there's a slow drain and it keeps dying. The transmission fluid pan is gonna rot through any day.

If I could raise 4k i could get a car that I can rely on to get me to work, another 4k i could get a down payment on a cheap house with a mortgage I could actually afford with that 3.5% down thing.

My medical insurance cut my plan and I can't afford to see my doctor's, so anything past this would go towards my medical bills as well as a fund to try to get a lawyer to protect myself.

I just found out today Im being taken to court for a weed charge from over a year and a half ago and I can't afford a lawyer and everything is too much I can't even handle this anymore.

I keep trying to work despite being disabled because I can't afford rent and bills. But trying to keep everything together is destroying me more and more every day and I need a fucjking break

I cant even stand up for myself right with cops because im an easy target and they manipulate it and I dont even wanna have to smoke weed but its like the only thing that helps my ptsd. I want to move to a legal state with better Healthcare so I can get the help I need. please help me start over

I will pray for your family's and your healing, please help me get my life back because I can not even handle life like this anymore