Help Filip afford life-changing top surgery!

Hi, thank you for clicking on my fundraiser!

I’m Filip, I’m a 29-year-old transmasculine guy who took an embarrassingly long time to realize he’s trans. I’m raising money for top surgery, because these things on my chest have overstayed their welcome by about 17 years!

I was slow on the uptake but realizing I’m trans flipped the world on its head. I don’t have the vocabulary to express it because saying I’m happier doesn’t come close. So instead, I’ll tell you some of the things that have changed since coming out:

I used to think I was an introvert. I self-isolated and told myself that’s what I preferred. Turns out I’m outgoing, social and, honestly, kinda funny? I used to think I had nothing to say, now I go to art school for creative writing (although tbh not sure how I got in??). I can’t sit still and I can’t shut up because I love being alive.

Being trans isn’t difficult, it’s beautiful and fun and eye-opening and emotional and its friendship and love and wonder. But dysphoria is difficult, dysphoria is painful.

As you may know, Swedish transgender care is nothing if not conservative. If I were to go through the public healthcare system, I’m looking at about a five year wait until I can have top surgery – if I receive a gender dysphoria diagnosis, which many transgender folks in Sweden have had withheld from them. I don’t have it in me to wait that long, so I’m going the private route. Being a student my income isn’t exactly impressive, which is why I’m asking for help.

Every dollar or kroner or your-currency-of-choice will go toward the cost of surgery, including the consultation fee. (The real price of top surgery is closer to/over 60,000 sek. Either I'll pay for some of it myself, or if by some miracle this goes really well I might increase the donation goal <3)

Sometimes my dysphoria fuels my writing. Through words I express the discomfort and pain and humiliation and try to make it into something beautiful. Other times, frankly most times, it leaves me paralysed and voiceless. It is hard to focus on the things you love when you’re not at peace with yourself.

Top surgery will give me peace. More than that it will let me truly live, present in the moment, experiencing the people and things that I love without distraction.

So um yeah, thank you if you decide to donate, I'd be eternally grateful <3

Filip