I am often asked what happened, however, I honestly have no real answer to that question. For months, I haven’t been feeling like myself, then the weird lumps... I don’t know where to begin in explaining all of this, but I have a serious fear of doctors. All of my adult life I avoided everything dealing with them, so that meant doing everything possible to stay healthy. Throughout the years, I learned my body. I feel I know my body, and in knowing my body, I knew something was wrong. For months, I kept thinking the feeling and lumps would go away, but they did not. Then this feeling came over me that I needed to see a doctor. For those words to come out of my mouth, it’s like I already knew. I went from planning Christmas for my children and planning my son’s sixth birthday party, to seeking treatment and a cure for the Hodgkin’s Lymphoma. Fuck, I have cancer.

Never in a million years would I ever think that I would consider any type of treatment; I thought for sure that I would go the Holistic route, but that unfortunately is not an option for me. They advised me that I would have to do 12 rounds of chemotherapy, which means hopefully 6-8 months of treatment. They warned me that I will lose my hair and that I will be sick a lot, but that is ONLY to get better. They gave me a lot more information, but I honestly drifted off into a state of purgatory. This can’t be life, this can’t be me, this isn’t me making a Go Fund Me page for cancer. But it is; this is my new normal, and 3 months in and I am still here; I have a few more rounds left, but I am ready for this fight. Fuck Cancer.

I thought for sure I would work while undergoing treatment, and I thought I was mentally prepared for this fight, so I think or thought, but chemotherapy leaves you practically lifeless. If you’re not running to the bathroom, that’s probably because chances are your are already in there. I have not been able to work as much as I would like to and the bills have already started piling up. My hope is that this fundraiser will provide me with resources necessary for treatment, recovery, and survival.  All funds generated from this account will be used to pay for costs associated with the treatment, and seeking to be cured of this cancer.  Examples of the related costs are the insurance deductibles for tests, insurance co-insurance/out of pockets, treatment, hospital stays, and doctor visits, including travel to the different facilities and costs associated with housing and treatment.  Other costs include payments to maintain insurance for my children while away from my job, personal bills, student loan payments, and related housing costs.   

I have been wrestling back and forth regarding whether I should start this page. I have always been a proud hardworking woman, but if this has taught me anything, it is that no man is an island and many hands make the burden light. I am going to need help to get through this. This is very difficult for me, but I know it is a necessary step in continuing to fight this. 

All contributions are greatly appreciated!

Thank you so much for all of the love and support!