Hi there, I'm Emily (better known as EmyBun), and I'm a disabled artist living in California. I primarily live off of disability payments and the commissions I do, however these past seven months have not been kind to me and I have had financial issues to the point of having a bank account that is perpetually $1200 in the negative. My monthly disability check gets eaten up by it and then it becomes negative again. I have tried to fix this for the past four months (when this large of a negative began), but I just can't seem to keep on top of it when I also have regular bills to pay.

I am drowning in backed up payments and debt at this point. I am at the point where I just don't want to live anymore because all I can focus on is my money issues. It's affecting my artwork, because I'm just thinking about the next time I can open commissions, and I know I'm starting to upset my clients with constantly opening them.

I am also drowning in a commission queue.

And the other day my paypal was shut down due to payments from my bank being returned so often (for months now) and it's now marked my paypal as fradulent.

I have no way to make money now, and my disability check goes right into that negative balance and it's still not enough.

I have a dog I must feed, and while I can go with eating only one meal a day, my dog obviously needs food too and his monthly allergy medication. I recently lost the majority of my EBT (thanks California), so my only way for feeding my dog and myself was commissions - which I can no longer take.

So I'm just asking for some help. Every little donation means the world to me. I just want to stop suffering financially. I would appreciate any help I could get. <3

I have a new bank account, but they will not be sending my disability check there this month - I was told it would go to the new bank account on March. The donations to this gofundme will go to the new bank account. It will be used to pay the backed up bills and rent that has built up over the months.