Lots of people lately saw what a dark and helpless place I am in and asked what they can do to help me, and I told them if I wanted help I would ask for it. Well.....This is me asking for help, and telling you how you can help and show you care. 

Here is my story, in a nutshell (if I were to provide all details you’d be reading a full novel). I would like to keep in touch with all people who donate, and tell them more about my story and provide updates as time goes on.

10 years ago I set out from my home state of Minnesota to move to Denver, Colorado. I worked myself insane trying to support myself.  I went back to college and got an associates degree all on my own (except student loans, which are now crippling me as well). I ended up getting a decent job in the solar energy industry.

Several years ago after many traumatic incidents my mental illness took a turn for the worse. It was so bad I was forced to leave work and go on disability. I was on disability for my mental health up until March 2021. The medication and therapy I have been getting haven’t been enough. My depression is currently the most severe that it has ever been, and there are so many reasons and factors to that I can’t even begin to explain it. 

As many of you may know, I have pretty much given up on life. I have no motivation or passion anymore. I can physically feel my body giving up. It has gotten to the point where I want to die because I feel every effort I make just ends up backfiring on me somehow and making my life even worse. I’ve been stuck in an abusive relationship for 10 years that has completely destroyed me mentally and destroyed my self image. I’ve tried to commit suicide recently and thought a lot about death. 

I need to get out of Colorado. I need to get serious mental help. I need to start all over. However, I have no job and no money in my bank account. This is such an emergency situation that I don’t have time to simply find a job and make the money I need in order to do what I need to do. I need to make this move NOW. 

What I would like to do is to move all of my stuff out of Denver including my rabbit Burny (pictured below).
I would like to go back to Minnesota for awhile to be around my best friends and family and also get the serious mental help that I desperately need. Regroup and get healthy again. By the end of the summer I would like to start a new life out in Arizona when I feel I am mentally healthy enough to carry on with my life and start a new career and whatnot. 

Good mental health treatment is extremely expensive. So is relocating to another state. I figured if I get just 1000 people that “got 5 on it” that will reach my goal. Or 500 people at $10 a pop. Hopefully there are some people that donate much more, although I will greatly appreciate it regardless of the amount. Doesn’t sound too unrealistic to me. So this is really my last effort, my Hail Mary, my last hope. 

Many people asked me how they can help me. Again, this is me asking for help and showing you how you can help and show you care.

If you say you care and want to show it, and I mean this in the most polite and genuine and sincere way possible, put your money where your mouth is. 

Thank you all very much for your support, I appreciate it more than you can possibly imagine.