Help Cydney with nutrition and vehicle repair. Ty. Isolated

My name is Cydney and I am beyond embarrassed to have to do this. I am unable to eat because lupus is attacking my intestines so I'm living basically off of insure which I can't afford. I go at least a week without eating and then I have to break down and eat something and it's extremely painful. Prosthetic leg that I used to walk with I can no longer walk anymore I'm completely wheelchair-bound in bed bound. It's almost like I've made my bed my tomb because I don't leave my home and I'm unable to go anywhere because the key gets stuck in my ignition and I'm unable to get it out so I'm absolutely homebound with the vehicle that I can't even use. I was supposed to have a home health aide and nobody ever showed up even though I've had the referral out for more than 5 months and I was never able to obtain a ramp so I have fallen back at least twice a week and hit my head with full force. Both of my doctors have giving me the medical exception to go ahead and head back home to Casa grande but that's still going to take a couple months. I'm just trying to find ways to survive and doing it the honest way and the best way know how and I don't know what to do other than ask for help and I've always been the help so who does the help ask for. I'm tired of being stuck at home because I'm watching everybody else live their life and I don't get to have that chance. I understand that everybody is struggling and having a hard time right now I just can't do much to help myself and that is breaking my heart everyday even before I get out of bed if I'm lucky to sleep that night at all. Anything would be greatly appreciated and again I know everybody is struggling and it took everything I had to ask for help. I don't know what else to do I pray I try to be help to others and guide them and get them to safety and get them the care that they need and I can't even get out of bed. Anything would be appreciated because I'm able to eat once a week if I'm lucky. I tried to get EBT and I get $76 in food stamps and that's it. It's been 3 hours a day on the phone just waiting hoping to somebody will answer just to have the call dropped while other people are coming over here getting $5,000 in EBT among other things and it really irritates me and breaks my heart because I'm doing everything to do the right thing the right way and I don't catch a break. I'm waiting for something to come in the mail but again that may take a month or two. Even have the pictures to prove that the lighting of my stomach is completely ulcerated in my intestines I found out last so I can't eat and I can't even get to a store if I need it to. I don't know what to do. My heart is broken even before I get out of bed and this isn't fair and I'm not saying why me I'm saying why not me... Strong but I'm tired. I'm tired of having to ask for help but once this comes through I will be paying it forward. I can't even afford to cut my hair I haven't done that in almost 2 years. I don't even look at myself in the mirror anymore. I'm needing a miracle and I am so tired of being scared to death. I'm so tired of not being able to sleep because my stomach hurts because I can't eat because I'm so hungry. I've lost 80 lb without a diet in about 2 years. Me moving back to Casa grande will be considered a medical exception so I'm getting a start on looking on places that offer affordable housing so I can be closer to my family because even my doctor's agree that I need my family's help and I can't do this alone. The last thing I ever wanted to be was a burden and that's all I feel like I am. And if I were able to receive such help I would make sure I paid it forward One day things will be a lot easier and I'll never have to ask for help again but I have to because my life depends on it my health depends on it my sanity depends on it my mental health depends on it as does my physical health. My car is ignition needs work on and I can't afford it. I can't go get help if I needed it in an emergency. I can't eat because I'm fully immediately after and everything hurts me so bad it's become just pointless why go through so much pain. We're all going to get here one day I just got here first. I'm very proud of myself for continuing to do the right thing always in my Integrity speaks for itself. Ty for reading ❤️. I can't wait to come home. I need my fam and friends immediately. I have very few. Not everyone is meant to stay. .trip and I will be coming for a 2 bedroom alone. Ty all and God bless. I would do it for you but I understand it's hard all around. I just want what's left of my life back .again, ty and God bless. This took everything for me to write. I used to be so beautiful. I wish I could cover my scars and cut my hair but all in time. Nutrition and a proper vehicle come first. Ty all. I love u no matter what .all my love, Cyd