My daddy is in frye hospital in Hickory. They found out a few days ago that he has lung cancer. He has one tumor that is so big that it's pressing against his esophagus preventing fluids or food to pass through. It has been many days since he has kept anything more than a drop down. He is dying, it may be here or at the hospice house. I lost my mom 16 years ago this month. My brother has made decisions on what he needs/wants to do for his healing. So that leaves the after arrangements in my hands and the cost. He will be cremated and anyone who wants to see him before he passes is invited to come see him. I am sobbing, getting ready to go inside the hospital to give him his last haircut. I trimed his nails the last time last week. Its painful and stressful enough just to be losing him, I'm daddy's girl, but knowing I cant even afford to cremate him, I dont even know how I am going to keep gas in the car to get back and forth and snacks and stuff for Andrew. I dont even have enough gas to get home from the hospital right tonight. My brother sees no reason to pay for ashes and says the state can do whatever they want to with his body, but that's my DADDY!! And I will never see him again after he dies, unless something changes or there's something we don't know of, but he believes life just ends when you die and life on earth is the hell place. I need help financially to get to him for these last moments and to cremate him when they are done. I need support and listening ears, prayers and hope as well. Nothing is too little. Some of my closest friends have been here supporting where ever they can, my cousins have visited him and supportive, my mom's family have even been here because he has always been a brother to them even after my mom passed and they made the past 3 days possible to get here. Some friends in my town are supportive and making sure I eat. But we're mostly in the same place, broke and barely making it. I had to spend my entire savings to fix my car the past month, $4000 over warranty costs. I could've used that to cremate him but life took that away and leaves me begging for help again. That cola raise of $14 we got in January cost me $60 worth of our snap benefits so it didn't help, it makes things worse. I dont even know how I manage to pay what I do with only $1,085 a month, car is $296, loan, $129, insurance is $300 month, power is $135 month, and lot rent is $691, so please tell me where there's any money left in that and that doesn't include the essentials? Thank you!