I'm asking for help because I reached a point that I could no longer go on living the way I had been. I was living out of my car for the better part of 5 years with periodic stays at my folks house in between various car problems and Hospital visits. The thing is that I lived out of a car because I hated the idea of being stuck in a bed. I started developing problems walking back in 2012 after I sprained my ankle and by 2015/2016 I could no longer stand even with a walker and I have been in a wheelchair ever since. Instead of spending my time feeling sorry for myself in a wheelchair or lying in a bed, I knew the place for me was in the driver's seat. I once stayed in that seat without ever getting out for over a year. I stayed in that seat because not only was I unable to stand, walk or even really hardly able to move at all, except for my arms. Even when I was in a bed I could hardly move my legs at all, I couldn't roll over, turn to my sides or even scoot my butt a centimeter in any direction. In a bed is where I felt truly helpless and depressed. As it turns out when I was driving I felt free, happy and independent behind a steering wheel than anywhere else. That is why I stayed in my car, not to mention it was extremely difficult to get me in and out and even more painful, so I just stayed in my car until I had no other choice, most of the time I had no where else to go anyway. The only thing I truly needed help with when everything was going well was the unavoidable and dreaded #2. 

For the longest time I couldn't find any answers as to why this was happening to me and even though I wanted to find Dr. House and his team, I went to every other doctor until eventually it was determined that I had ALS a.k.a. Lou Garrett's disease. 

I have always loved life, my life. Through out all of this I've never stopped living and laughing but regrettably the love'n has slowed down but I still love life and I want to have one again. I know the key to that is to have a vehicle that I can get in and out of on my own and preferably one i'm not worried about breaking down on me for atleast a few years. I do have a plan and some goals set to getting out of this pit I have found myself in. At this moment in my life I am in and have been in a very strange place, actually and figuratively. Not only am I actually in a nursing home but I can't get out of here and achieve my own goals without your help. My goals are simple. I need a handicap accessible vehicle that allows an electric wheelchair to get to the driver's position and get in and out of the vehicle with a hydraulic lift. This will give me the freedom and independence needed to start living life again. Im asking for help because to get the type of vehicle I need they cost on average $30,000 for one around 8-10 years old. Needless to say they are not inexpensive but very necessary to begin having any kind of life again. From there I can find a place to live and anything else every red blooded human being desires, a choice to do what one pleases. Without that kind of vehicle I will be forced to stay in this nursing home unable to even save for this humble dream of having a normal life again because nursing homes take 98% of all your Social Security/Disability monthly income.

So if you can find it in your hearts to help me get back to spending as much time with my kids as I can or they allow me, lol and all the other gifts that life offers.

I know either between Medicare and Medicaid and my parents I will get an electric wheelchair but I need your help to get the conversion vehicle. To be able to drive to my son's swim meet or my son's soccer game and be able to watch it would mean the world to me. Also i could really use a medical bed if anyone has one to donate. I dont want to have to live out of my vehicle again.

 My parents were right, time Flys bye way to fast and I don't want to miss one more thing. My two boys are everything. 

 I will be eternally grateful and I will owe a debt I could never repay but I will always be paying it forward any way I can.