Friends, I need your help again. It’s always hard for me to ask for help of any kind, and to ask for money is the worst. I never thought I’d be in a position to ask like this, let alone twice. It feels shameful to put this out in public, but if I were to call many of you and ask on the phone, that would probably be even more awkward for both of us. So I’m putting this out there, and hopefully, some of you can help me out - even contributing $10 or $20 would be wonderful!

If I can catch up on some overdue bills and get through August and into September, I could be back on track. I’m asking now to avoid things spiraling out of control further with fees and liens and overdue rent. I raised $775 through this campaign in January, so I added $2000 to the goal. To be honest, I am grateful for ANY donation!

If you are comfortable with VENMO: @Carolyn-Jay1

or Zelle (can't list email or phone# here) see comments

These avoid processing fees and delays :)

As some of you know, I moved to Brooklyn in October and I’m very happy about that. I feel like NY has more to offer, and ironically - I thought it would be easier to find a job.

I did get hired at a movie theatre in March, but I had to commute to Manhattan. Although they tried to work with my disability, I felt like I couldn’t do what they needed, and I was let go. It was overwhelming to feel that I couldn’t even do this simple job. The anxiety and the nightmare commute led me to call out sick and arrive late and I’ve been out of work since June. I’ve struggled with mental health issues most of my adult life, but I usually manage to remain functional. My life in some ways has been unsettled since my Mom passed away in 2008, but I am finally embracing a new life for myself. Starting a totally new lifestyle in a different city, with no car, and no friends nearby - has initially set me back, and it’s been difficult to accept that I can not do the physical tasks that I used to do. I’m finally feeling a little better physically and mentally - maybe because I managed to lose some weight, maybe because it’s finally under 90 degrees! I’ve been focusing on applying to clerical jobs and work from home, and keeping an eye out for any theatre or film related job I could handle. I hope something will come through soon, but for now, I’d really appreciate your help. I want to thrive, not just survive, and I’m committed to making that happen! I’m willing to do whatever it takes to succeed, and when I do, I’d even offer to pay you back, or take you to lunch, or again have a big party like I used to. I definitely look optimistically to the future, and I know I will get past this difficult time. Thank you for reading this, whether you can help or not, and thanks again for being my friend!