Help Camille Find Peace After Tragedy

My name is Camille and I live in the Philadelphia area. I have 5 children and 22 grandchildren. I'm a single parent; my children's father is deceased. I lost my mom 2 years ago and lost my husband in May 2024. That's a lot to deal with. On the day of December 13, 2024, I was going out to eat with a family member around 6:30 pm. I saw my son walking up the steps and he asked me if I was leaving. I said yes, I'd be back in a couple of hours. (He never looked me in my eyes.) So I went out and I heard my Ring camera go off, but I paid it no mind. It dinged again, so I looked at it and saw the lights of an ambulance. I called home and everybody's phone was going to voicemail. So now I'm heading home devastated because I feel something's not right (crying and howling on the way home). I get to my block and it's full of cops from top to bottom. I run to my house and the cops tell me I can't go in. I ask why, and the cop tells me, "I don't want you to see him like this..." I lost my mind. (See who? See who?) I screamed. I was told my son killed himself. I just lost it. I don't really remember what was going on that night; I was in a state of shock. Please help me!!!! Please!!!!! Please!!!! I'm still staying in my home where my son killed himself. I have to come out of my room and see the blood and the room my son stayed in. I can't live like this. I'm just in need of help to relocate. Please, please, please, I'm losing my mind in this house. Every morning I wake up, I cry, cry, cry. I just cry. No cop or detective came to my house to inform me of the programs I can join to relocate. Somebody please help me. I'm in need of help. Thanks in advance!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Please help so I can have a new home and don't have to come out of my room to see blood from my son. Please help me.