Support Briella's Journey to Authenticity

Allow me to introduce myself, My name is Briella. I am 24 years old and I was born intersex. My Parents were both very young when they had me and my mom fought very hard to keep me her entire pregnancy. I was born premature due to other complications. It was at this point i was rushed into NICU for some time and the battle would beginning. Shortly after they got my other issues out of the way they let my parents know they had done a surgery on me that they deemed was necessary. I was born in 2000 with both male and female genitals', doctors chose what one to go with immediately without consulting my parents. The entire time they had gone for pre check ups and ultrasounds doctors had told my mom and dad they were having a healthy little girl. If only i had a voice back then that could be understood. I am now left with a mutilated genitalia that has scar tissue causing UTI problems consistently as well as gender dysmorphia/body dysmorphia. As i mentioned my parents were both young and had issues during the pregnancy so they were both just delighted to get to take me home safely. I grew up my entire childhood feeling out of place. Being raised as a boy the doctors decided i was meant to be. I was always drawn to things girls wanted to play with, the things girls would wear, makeup. Some of my youngest memories as a child are witha wedding dress costume in grade school i would wear everyday, i also always remember waling around in my mom and grandmas heels whenever the chance arised. This being said my parents still had no idea i was born intersex. This was never properly explained to my parents and it wasn't until i was 17 and had faced years of bullying, self doubt, depression and other issues i figured it out myself. I learned myself about intersex people and their stories by social media and doing some research of my own. Tons of individuals born around the year i was have very similar stories as i do. This is when i started to put things together and decided to ask my mom if there was anything weird that would explain this all. After sharing some of the stories with her she decided to go through all of the paper work and pictures she had from when i was born and she shared with me some things that confirmed what i had known all along. I was supposed to be named Alexis, Full pink baby shower, fully pink baby nursery. If only the doctors hadnt made that choice or atleast shared what should come with it who knows how my quality of life could have been. The doctors who preformed my surgery have since passed away unfortunately. So making this right is left up to me. I decided to go in for blood testing where i found i have little to no testosterone for a 24 year old male Instead i have more estrogen in my body being produced. The problem with not finding out until i was born intersex is that i haven't gone through a full puberty for a female or a male. None of my parts have grown since i was about 7-8 years old. This making bottom surgery out of the question for me. So i am requesting your help with donations for Top surgery as i feel this is my one resort to feeling as true to my real self as i can ever really be. I know that might sound dumb to some but it would help me quality of life be improved drastically and i would be truly grateful for you even taking the time out of your day to read my story. All proceeds raised will be used to cover any medical costs/ lost wages while recovering.