Help Brandi and Parker Through Their Loss

My name is Brandi. June 4th of this year was the worst day of my life truly a parent's worst nightmare. My daughter Savannah had been missing for exactly a month. I thought maybe she was just struggling with her sobriety and went to clear her head or decided to travel again like she did a few years ago. As the information came in over that 4 weeks it became very clear that this was not a decision that Savannah had made for herself. I will never forget sitting here with for 4yr old bff/brother that day we were making more missing posters. Parker insisted on drawing a dinosaur on every single one he said to keep his sissy safe. We got that knock on the door ... The one that makes her heart jump into your throat. The deputies that had been there the day before when we searched for my daughter's body were standing in my living room when my entire world came crashing down. They had found my daughter my son's best friend in the whole world and the brightest light in anyone I'd ever known dead. There's no way to ever describe accurately the feeling I guess the best way to put it is it feels like someone pulls the life right out of your lungs your heart hurts your chest is heavy before the tears even come up your throat is burning and it almost feels like you're sitting there watching it happen to somebody else not you. It is starting to sink in with her memorial coming up in a few days that Savannah Banana is never coming home. No more her eating all my food. No more calling her little brother chicken nugget like she has since the day was born. No more hearing my son squeal when his sissy runs up to give him a hug and completely ignores me. There's good also no more pain from her severe health issues, no more worrying about her every single night. The worst thing of all we will never hear her loud goofy laugh or her standard super cheerful greeting heyyy!! With that huge smile that lit up the world and could outshine the sun. Along with losing our daughter and best friend and sister I have a lot of lost wages not working for the last month and the bills are piling up rapidly. I'm supposed to go back this Friday but I don't know if I can handle it and I don't know if I can handle leaving Parker when he's only half left. I'm not asking for anything extraordinary I just want to be allowed to grieve my daughter and be with my son so that I can help him grieve the loss of his sister. Anything that goes beyond what is needed will be used for a memorial bench in Savannah's name that we will be attempting to get permission from the state to install somewhere near where she was found. I'm so grateful to my in-laws and Savannah's father an extended family for covering the memorial expenses and all flying down here and being so supportive of my son and I. I don't think I would have made it through this without her father. Savannah Banana we love you to the Luna and more than dinosaurs