help bq get back home

hey. my name is bq, and in may 2020, i moved from SE michigan to the seattle area on impulse. i had no savings, no real direction in life, and was motivated due to worsening mental health & c-ptsd ruining my life.

it was hard, but i made it. i had a community of friends for the first time and a support system that wasn’t made up of people who were complicit in my abuse/abused me. in august of 2021, my housing situation changed and i panicked and returned to my hometown. i thought i would be able to save up and get back on my feet, but it turns out that returning to the environment where i had been traumatized was a huge mistake (within 24 hrs i saw someone who had sexually assaulted me). i bolted again, this time to friends in texas, and after being able to reset a little, the reality that my home is in washington & that i deeply miss my friends, cat, and healthcare has been hitting me like a truck.

my fundraising goal is a tentative $5k, with $3k being allotted to first/last months rent + deposit at whatever housing i end up taking (probably a random room), $1k for general moving costs (going across country, again) and an additional $1k as a safety net until i can regain employment & stability (basically like, food, necessities, etc). this sucks and i hate asking for help, bc frankly i would rather die at this point. but i’ve seen that life is worth living, and i miss the people and environment that i’ve come to recognize as home.

please, please help me get back.