I honestly feel like I am writing this in a dream I cant wake up from. My cat Benji got really sick out of nowhere and the last few days have just felt like everything is falling apart around me. He barely eats now. He curls up in the same little spot and looks at me with these tired eyes that make my whole chest tighten. It feels like he is trying so hard to stay here with me even though he is exhausted.

The vet said it is FIP. I could barely even hear the rest of what they were saying. I was just staring at Benji because he looked scared and I felt completely helpless. I keep replaying that moment because I still cant believe this is happening. He used to run around and meow at me for everything and now he barely has the energy to lift his head when I say his name.

There is treatment. It can actually save him. That part is the thing that both gives me hope and breaks me at the same time. Because I want to start it right away. I want to do everything for him. But the cost is unbelievably high and I have already drained what I had into the tests and the first meds. Im selling what I can and doing everything I can think of but I am still falling short. And watching him get weaker while knowing there is something out there that can help him is tearing me apart.

I hate asking for help like this. It feels embarrassing. But losing him would be worse. When he is not feeling too sick he still tries to purr when I pet him. He still puts his paw on my arm like he is telling me he is trying his best. He has such a soft little soul. I just want him to have a chance to feel good again. I want to see him walk around the house like he used to. I want to see him stand up on his back legs for treats again. I want that so bad it actually hurts.

If you can help or even just share this it means more to me than I can explain. I am just trying to save my boy. I know he is fighting. I am trying to fight with him.

Treatment Costs

GS 441524 antiviral treatment for 84 days $6250

Bloodwork panels throughout treatment $580

Diagnostic testing and ultrasound $470

Supportive medications for appetite nausea fever and pain $360

SubQ fluids and at home treatment supplies $210

Follow up vet visits and post treatment evaluation $320

Emergency vet visit during his fever crash $500

High calorie food and supplements to keep his weight stable $160

Syringes needles pads and other injection supplies $150

Unexpected medical fees transportation and add ons $300

Total needed $9000

Thank you for reading this. Even just caring enough to read about him helps me feel a little less alone in all this. I just want Benji to make it. Anything truly anything brings him closer to that chance.