Help Ayana Pay For School

Hi, all. I've done some thinking for some time now and have considered multiple ways in helping myself achieve the goals I set for myself, one of them being graduating college. As a 2nd year/Sophomore in college entering my Junior year, I'd say my experience has been just as any other college student's. Sleep deprivation. Anxiety. Lack of motivation. Change in eating habits. Even mourning. In 2018, right before the beginning of my senior year in High School, I lost my mother to her very fatal battle with cervical cancer. It changed my life forever. The trauma and emotional baggage that came with it, carried with me through my school. I didn't allow myself to stop. I kept going for the sake of not being left behind as that has always been a great fear of mine. I forced myself through great brains just to make it out of High School alive basically and every day, I won the battle and I won the war too. My classmates, my teachers, all of them made my life worth living. Whether at breakfast, the gym with Coach Nelson, or just in Museum Studies with Ms. Durrett. Didn't matter. Because I had you all. Even though college has been rocky, I was and am still able to keep in contact with old friends and make a couple new ones who stick beside me through my highs and lows. Grateful I am.

And now, for the first time in my life, I've become dedicated to getting counseling and I feel proud of that. I know there's more to my trauma and I'm determined to figure out what's going on to help myself manage. After my mother passed, I received the finances that she had left for me that were able to carry me through the rest of high school and my first 2 years of college. I know this money was able to give me leniency with the emotions I felt and the grief I endured but now it is time for me to get up. I've made lots of plans for myself over the summer and hopefully plans to help me with making funds for school less harsh on myself, if those are the right words. I'm not sure. But I know this: I don't give up. I know that if I'm going to have to help myself, it'll be mostly myself working toward it. That's sad, truly. But I get that. However, I created this GoFundMe to help take some of the ease of doing these things alone off of my back. A little backbone, if you will. I am so very grateful for those who have donated, shared, and spoke with me already. No matter what you do, your kindness is engraved in my heart. I know I will make it because there's no other way around it. I would never let myself down and I am proud to say that I have friends who don't give up on me either. That faith is what keeps me rocking. Thank you so much.