Help Autumn get FFS (Facial Feminisation Surgery)

Hey, my name is Autumn and I'm a 30 year old trans woman asking for help in raising funds for FFS (facial feminisation surgery).

I've been out as a trans woman for almost 5 years now and on hormones for just as long. While coming out was the single best decision I have ever made and my life + struggle with dysphoria has only improved as a result, I always knew I would need FFS to truly feel comfortable with the way I look and who I am.

Living in the UK as a trans woman has been difficult. Importing DIY hormone injections from abroad because our healthcare sucks, facing frequent public harassment and growing animosity or worse via our government and media... It's a lot. And despite how much better my life is despite those things, the dysphoria I feel on a daily basis in regards to my face has somehow grown more unbearable than the rest.

I hate my face - and it has little to do with comments people have made about how "manly" I look. I scrutinise and hate myself for it daily and avoid almost all photographs or videos as a result. There are almost entire years of my life where there is simply no proof I existed due to how debilitating the following dysphoria, mental anguish and self-hatred the resulting images would cause - for days or even weeks/months after. So many memories with loved ones where there is nothing for me to remember them by because I was too scared to see myself in them. To have spent so much of my life supressing who I am and my own existence, to have the world attempt to deny me that existence and then feel so compelled to supress it myself because of how I feel about my face feels like a cruel joke. I really don't feel like I can truly live until I can find some peace with the way that I look and for my face to better reflect who I really am.

As a game developer/video editor, I have been fortunate enough to have employment and a means of income, but despite my stubborn attempts to fund FFS on my own over the years, I am still so far away and I realise that I really do need help to reach my goal. While I have some money set aside for surgery, the number of procedures I need, alongside travel, other expenses, etc. means that I must ask for more than I would otherwise feel comfortable to help me feel safe and happy with who I am and be able to live as such - and as me.

Any & all donations would be greatly appreciated. Thank you <3